"So often I feel that I am the only one with any semblance of haste. I am in a hurry to do everything, and I want to do it today, not tomorrow -- this week, and not the next. The concept of the future doesn't exist for me anymore. But unfortunately there is also so much that are out of my hands, that I can't influence, that I have to trust to others to do, and these others still have the concept of future. This is the fundamental difference that divides me now from the rest of the world. I worry if I'll have enough strength in my hands to knead my cookie dough tomorrow. I'd rather have baked them today." -- same blog. dying, day 1

found it very meaningful.