New year's eve.

14 hours and 57 mins left. By that time, i will be free of my BAD LUCK. HURRAY!! New year = new beginning = new luck, for all cases of 'new'!

Today is CCa farewell! Nothing to look forward to. =x. After all these bad luck/events i have already become numb to everything. Nothing seems to able to interest me anymore.. Maybe a new game? But new games such days are crappy. I seemed to have lost all my reason to live..

Do i sound like a bastard? People in Malaysia/phuket/india just lost their lives unwillingly.. and i am here not cherishing my own life. Maybe. But.... if u think hard enough.. there isn't much things to do in life. Even if there are.. those are meaningless things. For example... bungee jump? lol... jump then jump lor. Would u gain anything from it? Excitement maybe.. But what do you need excitement for? Do you live just to gain excitement?

Most people have ambitions. Space pilot, President, Doctor, Scientist, Astronaut wadever. Now to think of it.. so what you have achieved what you want? What does it gives you? Sense of achievement?? Pride? Crap. Primitive humans hunt to get food in order to survive. Now the so called homosapiens (man of knowledge) work hard just to get something that actually does not exist? We will be made a laughing stock by the ants.

New year's eve. I'm getting emotional because i have a bad year. Well i just hope everyone get what there want for their new year. I don't have many wishes.

Some day my blog will be deleted for encouraging suicide.... lol. But seriously, do what you ownself believe in. No matter what other say to you, just do what you believe.. and u will have no regrets.

Happy new year.