New year's eve.

14 hours and 57 mins left. By that time, i will be free of my BAD LUCK. HURRAY!! New year = new beginning = new luck, for all cases of 'new'!

Today is CCa farewell! Nothing to look forward to. =x. After all these bad luck/events i have already become numb to everything. Nothing seems to able to interest me anymore.. Maybe a new game? But new games such days are crappy. I seemed to have lost all my reason to live..

Do i sound like a bastard? People in Malaysia/phuket/india just lost their lives unwillingly.. and i am here not cherishing my own life. Maybe. But.... if u think hard enough.. there isn't much things to do in life. Even if there are.. those are meaningless things. For example... bungee jump? lol... jump then jump lor. Would u gain anything from it? Excitement maybe.. But what do you need excitement for? Do you live just to gain excitement?

Most people have ambitions. Space pilot, President, Doctor, Scientist, Astronaut wadever. Now to think of it.. so what you have achieved what you want? What does it gives you? Sense of achievement?? Pride? Crap. Primitive humans hunt to get food in order to survive. Now the so called homosapiens (man of knowledge) work hard just to get something that actually does not exist? We will be made a laughing stock by the ants.

New year's eve. I'm getting emotional because i have a bad year. Well i just hope everyone get what there want for their new year. I don't have many wishes.

Some day my blog will be deleted for encouraging suicide.... lol. But seriously, do what you ownself believe in. No matter what other say to you, just do what you believe.. and u will have no regrets.

Happy new year.

Most unlucky guy.

Yup. You are looking at the no doubt, most unlucky guy this year. Following are the accounts for the statement.

It all began: Watch held dear spoilt due to water going in. Water resistance 100m mind you.

Computer broke down. Harddisk drive spoilt. Important files gone.

Prelims flopped amaths. Due to usage of dx/dy instead of dy/dx as gradient. (pak jiao..)

Last day of school..... my close frens shld know z......

O level prac. Physics. Used 3 measurements only.. (singly?) Chem.. calculator out of batt. slammed it on the table then it worked.

2 days before O level 1st paper. Viral fever. 38.7 degree celsius.

Before Amaths paper 2. Newly bought long ruler lost.

Amaths paper 2. Didnt bring another new long ruler bought just for this paper in. Short ruler dropped on floor but i didnt know. i thought left it home. (Luckily no need ruler for that paper..)

Bought new computer w/o monitor and gfx card + cd-rom drives. Casing with the colour that i like sold out. Casing supposed to have a side window, until got home then realised they give the one w/o window.

Suffered severe acne. Healing now. On medication that cost $108 for 1 month course.

PAE. Some 10 pters got in VJ sci while i still cant even with appeal. 12 pters from VS got in thru appeal. But thru shit CCAs (choir, CO, band) . Most stupid thing is that they tell me cos of 'no space' i cant get in.

EDIT: 23rd Dec. LOL..... Was eating pizza in Pizza hut (sec 4 self organized farewell) when suddenly came in someone. LOL. Where got unlucky?? lOL

24th Dec. something happened.

Today. Unable to get new phone today cos of some reason.. give up.

+ lots more. If my frens discovered i haven mentioned any (cos too many to remember), let me know.

"Blessing in disguise?" Yeah i sure like the sound of that o.o

MerRy ChRisTmAs wor! =)

This x'mas will be fun! Yesterday hor... stupid singtel tio flood until dunno like what..... They should do something about it ma.. im sure then already anticipate this would happen le.

1 more hour i'll be on my way to uncle's house.... x'mas party.. But.. i dont like such family parties... haha. Cos all the uncle aunties at there talk so loud. Uncles will at there gamble together with some aunties.. While aunties will either cook or gossip.... haix. then as usual i will find my own corner (usually the sofa) and watch x'mas tv programmes!

X'mas alot programmes one. Haix.. can hear my mother at there scream... they always chase us but then later surely will still be us waiting for them 30mins.. Ok i go bathe liao~

Liang jing ru rox! Her songs!! haha. Wish each and every earthlings and non-earthlings a merry x'mas! Forget all worries and enjoy this day!

"So often I feel that I am the only one with any semblance of haste. I am in a hurry to do everything, and I want to do it today, not tomorrow -- this week, and not the next. The concept of the future doesn't exist for me anymore. But unfortunately there is also so much that are out of my hands, that I can't influence, that I have to trust to others to do, and these others still have the concept of future. This is the fundamental difference that divides me now from the rest of the world. I worry if I'll have enough strength in my hands to knead my cookie dough tomorrow. I'd rather have baked them today." -- same blog. dying, day 1

found it very meaningful.

"What do you say to friends who say "I'm sure you will get well soon"? What is the basis of their faith that I'm actually not dying, but merely undergoing a phase that will be temporary before life starts kicking in again? Do they know something that I don't? Do they realise the seriousness and extent of my disease? That tumours tend to grow rather than shrink spontaneously? That death is statistically, historically, even philosophically more certain that life?
The enthusiasm to believe that I will get better is based on the reluctance to think about the concept of death, to try to understand what death means. Of course death is frightening. That's a natural biological reaction. Every living thing strives to stay alive. And death is all the more frightening when you have to watch it unfold before yourself. But you achieve absolutely nothing by refusing to acknowledge it. You do not comfort me with your assurance that I won't die, because escaping death is not what I'm longing for. What I'm longing for is for you to understand what death is. Look it in the eye and see it for what it is. And then you'll see that understanding death is the only one and true liberation... " --taken from http://dyingis.blogspot.com/2004/11/dying-day-3.html . May Grace rest in peace...

I took out this part from her blog because i feel that this can apply to other cases other than death. Sometimes things gets very certain to a state that consoling someone by telling him/her that s/he's fine is actually v irritating instead of finding it helping.. Consoling by helping the person lessen their pain will be more helpful in my opinion..

Wed know appeal results. Wish me luck..!

"Learning to live should also mean that you learn to die, that you assume absolute mortality as the basis, and learn to accept it, without expectation of salvation, hope for recovery, or delivery for yourself or for another. The classical philosophical exhortation since Plato: to philosophise is to learn to die..." -- Jacques Derrida
Its from the same blog. V meaningful. Should i think more? But why should i? i got quite a happy life now.

Dont get the wrong idea i am thinking of death... Just found it meaningful. And i will be optimistic.

Michelle Branch rox! Actually i mean her songs =)

Yes! I have been posted to another JC, NOT VJ! Why? Hahaha, cos i suck! Nvm about that. Different Jc so what? Haah.

Yeah, saw the fat man inside VJC General Office today! He is so chubby i almost wanted to squeeze his cheeky cheeks! Oh im getting crazy! I submitted a 1cm thick appeal to the office HAHAHA. Actually not 1cm la.. around.. 3mm and i mean it! Total of 17 pages :)

1st page is the form itself. 2nd and 3rd are sec3/4 results. 4th is PAE verification form. 5th is CCA records. 6Th is testimonial 7th onwards are all certs! yeah im damn talented ya know.. Hope they will accept! Or i go back and kick that fat man's butt keke.

Ouch gastric! Spent whole morning on this. Quite alot people appeal. ard 10 for science? is that alot? haha no idea! Im full of hope in everything! Im getting mad!

Wow another michelle branch song playing! Breathe and 'til i get over you are nice songs in terms of just the melody and stuffs, not the lyrics. But dido still rox!

Every 9 pts people get into vj and i 10 cant get in lol.. isnt that fun? Haha.

Last shoutout to all my frens! Good luck in your JCs/Polys ! Qw jia you ar! Yf good luck! Fman dont hobby too much (talking!) can liao! Yes i mentioned 3 names! Tonight headlines will be someone like this: Teen brutally murdered in Bedok Reservoir road. 3 friends suspected to be involved!

I'm back! Sorry i didnt blog past few days cos i was really busy.. i went to 2d chalet at 9th, slept whole day at 10th (cos didnt sleep whole nite at 9th), went out whole day at 11th, and so finally can blog today!

Ok so im going to talk about my 2d chalet. Let me tell u man, its the best chalet i have ever went =)).

When i arrived at the meeting place, i was actually quite surprised(dunno why) to see my old classmates again. haha.. Ok.. they bought some vodka(i didnt touch them whole trip :D) then we get to our chalet at Nethervadon (Aloeha Changi) by shuttle service.

Once we arrived at 2pm, we found out that actually check in time is 3.30pm T.T (Ms Anne Lee called Pangker at 1pm+) zzZzzzzzzzz... So... the 5 guys(including me.) played soccer while 2 girls zuo bo. Others went ntuc to buy stuffs (did not sit the shuttle with us). haha.. the soccer was kinda one sided.. with the side with 3 players winning everytime.

Ok skip all these. Then finally Ms Anne Lee and her family members together with the others who went to ntuc arrived and we finally get to get into the chalet! WA.. at 1st we look from the outside thought that the chalet sux cos it is one block of terrace. but when we went in... its damn big. There are 2 storeys, upper storey got 2 rooms(big) one for girls one for guys, got a bathroom and a toilet. Lower storey got a living room, one xtra room, and one kitchen and toilet.

So after we unpacked everything, we started to play games. 1st was captain's ball.. haha. quite fun. Then was water bomb. i couldnt play cos didnt bring clothes. so i went to chui air con at guys room, on radio and lie on bed HAhahaha :PP They play the water bomb till like siao. even throw inside the house, making the whole place wet.

After play finish time to dry the floor. i came down and helped out.. i good rite? haha. Then there was steamboat dinner!! (gotta pay xtra 2 bucks, from the original 8.) the food quite nice, i ate quite alot also. haha.. after dinner, there is one guy, (think not good to say out name), stuck with matters of religion. sigh~~. i nth to do so listen. then later things went on till me, him, and a girl and guy christian were in a room talking about christianity Oh my.... i just listened.

For those who didnt know.. im a freethinker from a buddhist family(not so devoted though). always had qns about life rite :) So im completely neutral. There are points where i want to voice out my opinions but haix.. just listen is better. then came funny part. chao yu came into the room and oops! haha.. then he went down again. later when he returned, he came back with Ms Lee LOl..... T.T..... then some other christian guys also came in.. they were like.. a group.. attacking that guy lol. ok.. then chao yu went down again. lol. this time brought some freethinker and buddhist to support that guy. haha damn funny.. while i lie on the other bed, relax. lol.. interesting to listen such things.

After that finally concluded, it was time for mahjong LOl.. ok i bluffed them i dunno how to play at 1st. but they later que alot people then i finally play. haha keep winning :) dont play money though. i dont like gamble, alcohol, smoking or wadever vices. think that they are waste of time and money just to harm ourselves. haha.. so we played from 11am to 4am. ate some tidbits and cup noodles in intervals. then.. it was decided by the guys to visit OCH.. lol. OCH's gate is just 100m away from our chalet lor. from our door can see the building le. We wanted to go in but lol... no one actually brought a torch. haha. in the end we didnt even reach the steps b4 the gates then we turned back le. cos it was really really dark. we could barely see the steps 50m away.

So the 8 of us decide to go Changi village to see transvestites hahaha.. :) ok we were really bo liao. but it was my 1st time doing these 2 trips. ok.. they are really disgusting. some are in groups while some solo. When they walk they sway their hips till v kua zhang lor... then when everytime a car drive pass they would use their hands to shuai their hair Lol... like the Pantene ads haha! Then got one in red saw us and started swaying towards us. Opps~. we turned and walk quickly back haha. After 15 m we gradually stopped again and she did not follow liao. Zheng Hao asked if he go to her and tan jia qian will everyone pay 1 bucks lol.. quite cheapo actually. but we all know how carzy zheng hao is.. me and heng yi refuse to dare him haha. however in the end he also nvr go.. haha u nvr know wad may happen. Maybe that transvest will just grab the .... haha and molest then too bad liao. so we went back. then some girls were outside the chalet and then we decide to go changi beach to wait for sunrise. the sky at 1st dont have stars... but later got alot. it was about 4++ then. i know sunrise about 5.30.. but heng yi say he came here so many times also cannot see sunrise de. the sky will just brighten and thats it. so i went back to try to sleep. ok i tried to. but once back i ate peanute butter bread :p

Then i slept LOL. from 6 to 6.30? lol.. then was damn bright. and becos b4 that some girls and boys were playing mahjong at the boys room..i slept at the living room. on the sofa hahaha. actually more comfy than the bed. the 2 beds was occupied le so couldnt sleep on them. haha actually sleep at living room quite malu la.. but heck lol. morning we had some noodles, bread and leftovers from yesterday.i shld have cooked cup noodles again haix. but the tasteless noodles not finish yet. so dont waste food. after that about 8+ i and heng yi went home b4 the rest.

When i reach home.. first thing i do is BATHE. haha. then i played comp lol. till about 1pm then finally too tired. weather cool that day also. so slept till 10pm haha. so 10pm ate dinner. =) then watch san guo haha. then play games. then 1am sleep again. zZzzZ

So thats all about the 2d chalet. haha. guess its the best chalet i went so far. i felt so close to my ex-classmates. but we had to leave... 2 years ago we left, separated into classes. but still in same school. this year, separate school.. sigh.. haha one thing wang zi couldnt stay overnite. at 1st he want to come for 1st day nia.. but Lol.... he got lost haha.. cos he *ahem* with *ahem*.. couldnt make it at meeting place in time haha.. missed the shuttle bus at 1.30pm. had to sit the next at 3.30pm. haha lost! lol

See you again.

Warning, there is a virus in your computer.

Nope. Not yours. But mine. I'm running a full thorough system scan now.. so took the time to blog. Virus are the most stupid programs ever made. They practically has no use to the maker nor the victims (or users). They are just stupid scripts made by stupid programmers who wish to flaunt their programming skills to the world. They have the guts to name the virus and admit that it was done by him so that he would be regconised by the world, and gaining respect from other programming freaks.

Yup, i would be a programming freak next time. Maybe i will work on the anti-virus side =). Kill kill kill. Die die die!

Nights are getting colder.. and stars getting fewer. You get the idea..? Ok, anyway this coming thursday will be my 2D chalet yeah! Long time since last gathering.. But come to think of it... i didnt really make any effort to know more about my classmates last time =x This thursday will be fun i guess.

Some may ask why my blog entry getting shorter week by week.. well thats because there is really nothing to write sometimes! Some things cannot be written also!

You always put me in a bad position to do anything.

I went to bedok princess(cheap!) with some of my frens and watched After the Sunset. The show is quite funny at times but besides that nothing worth remembering.. i would give it a 3/5.

Haix.. suddenly miss my classroom... my classmates.. my frens.. recess.. lessons.. teachers.. canteen food!! Although jc food will be much better but i still miss our school's Chinese Cuisine(haha), Chicken Delight, and also the Kopitiam. The uncles and aunties stall holders are so friendly.. always smiling.. sometimes they even crack jokes! Some of them even complain about Mr WAng haha. Oh yes.. couldn't forget about Mrs Mary Chan =). Now then i realise my sec 1 teachers all leave school le.. except for ANNE LEE LOL. Sec 2 teachers that are still teaching are.. Mr adrian.. mrs NC koh... hmm.. who taught us maths? Mdm tham? Lol. Erm not. thats sec 3 =x

I guess school is the best place to find good friends. Later when all of us are working.. we are too busy to make friends. There won't be many colleages in a company, at least those who will have close and constant contact with you. In school, u get to see the same people for many years.. during the time where you got lots of time to play with each other.. talk.. know each other.. observe.. plan.. instigate.. ambush.. kill... oops (=

Wonder how jc life will be like. Tutorials dont sound fun.. Lecture = lecture lol.. dont need much imagination.. Will i find good frens there? haix..

Waitin wait wait and waiting! 14 days to posting results!

I'll set an example. Proving starts now.

Forgot to blog yesterday cos of sg idol... haha taufik won. These few days been at home... i want to go out. But everyone now is night play day sleep. zzz.................

Actually nothing much happened la.. At home only play. But nth to play le.. [.................................................... waste space ...............................................................]

Ok. here's a very cold cartoon. Don't see if u cant take coldness!