my ORD.

*melodious beep tone~*

I'm awaken by my handphone alarm at 5.30am, just realising that i only slept 3 hours ago.

The night before I had many thoughts in mind. Mainly because the next day is my ord.

The next thing i knew, i was already on my way to the bus stop in my civilian clothes.

On the way there, i began to recollect all the experience I had during these 2 years, the good and the bad, and how did they changed my life. Whether if im posted to unit (41 SAR) instead, having different people as buddies, would I change? For better or worse? Thinking of how our lives shape us to be who we are. I'm lucky to say that I'm still meeting the right people.. i guess.. haha.

I reached my bunk only to found out that my bed and cupboard is already occupied by someone else. The best thing is that.. my cupboard lock has been changed to someone else's. Then where are my precious things? The most important thing i recall leaving inside is my course photograph at the taipei tao yuan international airport. I immediately looked into the thrash bag in the bunk only to find my toothpaste and other thrash inside. I went on to find out who is the one to moved in to my bed and actually broke my lock (it cost at least 5 dollars by the way) and threw all my things away. 

After some asking around, found out it's one of the new people from my dept. He said they just moved in the night before, and thought we ord so they broke our locks(oh great!). He added that he knew that the photograph would mean something and therefore put it somewhere else(where he did not remember). After a trip back to the bunk, he concluded that most likely it has been thrown away with other thrash. (what a welcome back on last day? it's like bad things WILL happen any day in camp.) But i held back my emotions despite being a sentimental(i guess) person, because its my ord and i dont want to spoil the memories.

After some paperwork, at 11.30am, I have officially ORDed by getting my Pink IC back! The guy from the photo of my Pink IC looks so young so different from me. :'(

I was then presented the Certificate of Service, service transcript and testimonial by my CO. Oh, so I'm actually an OUTSTANDING soldier with OUTSTANDING conduct. Great! I should sign on! Like real..

One thing on my testimonial said, "Gibson will continue to excel in any field in the future". That's reassuring.. however I don't know which field to choose.

My buddy has ORDed the day before, so it makes the whole process a little bit more emotional i guess. :'( 

And so i left the camp with some of my friends at 12pm sharp, without looking back at all. When you look back, it's either you can't let go or you have no choice but to go. Therefore I didn't. Because I know it's only good for us to let go and move on to next phase of life for us to be happy, and thus i choose to go.

I have... ORD LOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

with mixed feelings. But i know it's a kind of happiness.