you are the butterfly in my stomach

11 months to ord.
sometimes when i think of it,
when you have nothing to do and have no one to talk to u
the feeling is very terrible.
that kind of solitude, it swallows your heart.
it makes you hard to breathe.
its so unbearable.

sometimes i feel that im happier in camp than at home.
because in camp there are your colleagues,
working beside you. they talk cock to you,
they tease you, they play with you.
its fun to be with some company.

whats more camp is such a good place.
where else in this world u can find a job that pays you ard 700-1000+k (if u are a commander)
a month with food and lodging provided when you are not even holding a degree and dont need you to have expertise in any kind of area.
you wake up to your working place every morning.
you can buy food at less than 100m away.
you have people greet you every morning.
you can ask someone whom you dont even know his name to get you a file from your office, or ask him to clean up the toilet.
you have free credits to purchase ur working attire.
you have not much work to do(for some).

you can only find this in the army.
what's more the higher rank you are, the least things you have to do.

but to be able to enjoy such previledges, you have to suffer first.

however, i notice nowadays army has became so slack(especially for some places).
half way through the first 7-day army fieldcamp you can order KFC? this is utter nonsense.
people are now having the wrong impression of army.
"army is slack 1 la."
sentences like "just serve your 2 years and fuck off" are easily passed.
army is no longer place where you grow up, for some.
people who have alot of frustrations in army are on the way to a meaningful NS experience.
army is the place where "Boys become Men"
and not "Pamper the pampered boys"

but whatever the case, i myself have learnt quite alot in army.
and that there are good and very bad regulars in the army.