Yesterday
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
Suddenly
I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Oh, yesterday
Came suddenly
Why she
Had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said
Something wrong now I long
For yesterday
Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
Why she
Had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said
Something wrong now I long
For yesterday
Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
Friday, February 16, 2007
Thursday, January 04, 2007
a new year
These are my last year's hopes....
Legend: Fulfilled, somewhat fulfilled, obviously not fulfilled
Hopes:
1. Get a girlfriend. (haix.. who can i blame.. im ugly and not clever and not funny and so quiet.. can someone help me out? haha..)
2. 4As 2 Distinctions.. <---- i forgot i was refering to prelims or A's.. if is prelims obviously i failed. if A's.. i dont think is v possible also
3. Happy.
4. World a better place!
lol.. looks like last year isnt a very good year for me..
nvm.. i dont expect this year to be good also.
this year's resolution:
1. get out of army alive. (hey i will at least have this fulfilled if i manage to see my blog next year!)
2. completely get rid of my acne.
3. good a lvl results
4. be happy.
5. World a better place.
i dont wish for much... less expectations.. less disappointment.
haha.
Legend: Fulfilled, somewhat fulfilled, obviously not fulfilled
Hopes:
1. Get a girlfriend. (haix.. who can i blame.. im ugly and not clever and not funny and so quiet.. can someone help me out? haha..)
2. 4As 2 Distinctions.. <---- i forgot i was refering to prelims or A's.. if is prelims obviously i failed. if A's.. i dont think is v possible also
3. Happy.
4. World a better place!
lol.. looks like last year isnt a very good year for me..
nvm.. i dont expect this year to be good also.
this year's resolution:
1. get out of army alive. (hey i will at least have this fulfilled if i manage to see my blog next year!)
2. completely get rid of my acne.
3. good a lvl results
4. be happy.
5. World a better place.
i dont wish for much... less expectations.. less disappointment.
haha.
Friday, December 08, 2006
a box of 'y's
i wonder why,
everytime when i feel sad
and i want to blog about it
i just couldnt.
is it that my mind and my heart do not connect well
or is it that my command of language is insufficiently capable to convert heart code into a language of words.
i dont even dare to blog where u can see.
because im afraid i might say the wrong things.
im afraid that i say too much that all seem mundane.
basically, im scared of losing you - which i am.
there i go.. saying the wrong things again.
you was never mine?
how could i say that im losing you when i dont have you in the first place.
everytime when i feel sad
and i want to blog about it
i just couldnt.
is it that my mind and my heart do not connect well
or is it that my command of language is insufficiently capable to convert heart code into a language of words.
i dont even dare to blog where u can see.
because im afraid i might say the wrong things.
im afraid that i say too much that all seem mundane.
basically, im scared of losing you - which i am.
there i go.. saying the wrong things again.
you was never mine?
how could i say that im losing you when i dont have you in the first place.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
a dull speck of starcrumbs
i have been living a no-life's life the past few days.
Waking up everyday and before you know it,
im on the battle screen of some rpg, rts or spraying off enemies in a fps game.
i have to admit. this kind of life was heaven to me.
but maybe i have grown old.. too old to be excited by such
trivial fun. then i thought, everyone wants to have fun.
maybe this is wad causing young people to break up these days.
i dont want to have fun.
i just want to be happy.
and to be happy i guess i have to live a life with meaning.
but life is meaningless to me now.
i do not have big dreams nor ambitions.
i dont need to have the latest accessories or clothing.
i dont need 24 hours of pure computer gaming everyday.
i dont need a big big house or some sports wagon.
i want nothing out of life.
maybe deep down i hope to have a person whom i can spend my life with forever.
maybe what i want is LOVE.
but do love exist anyway?
do anyone value love?
do anyone really know how to love? who to love?
love obviously cannot be obtained just overnight.
i have to wait for the right one to arrive.
maybe she already have.
maybe she will never come.
but right now in my life,
i can only wait for her to come.
.. and before that, life is meaningless.
because she is my meaning in life.
Waking up everyday and before you know it,
im on the battle screen of some rpg, rts or spraying off enemies in a fps game.
i have to admit. this kind of life was heaven to me.
but maybe i have grown old.. too old to be excited by such
trivial fun. then i thought, everyone wants to have fun.
maybe this is wad causing young people to break up these days.
i dont want to have fun.
i just want to be happy.
and to be happy i guess i have to live a life with meaning.
but life is meaningless to me now.
i do not have big dreams nor ambitions.
i dont need to have the latest accessories or clothing.
i dont need 24 hours of pure computer gaming everyday.
i dont need a big big house or some sports wagon.
i want nothing out of life.
maybe deep down i hope to have a person whom i can spend my life with forever.
maybe what i want is LOVE.
but do love exist anyway?
do anyone value love?
do anyone really know how to love? who to love?
love obviously cannot be obtained just overnight.
i have to wait for the right one to arrive.
maybe she already have.
maybe she will never come.
but right now in my life,
i can only wait for her to come.
.. and before that, life is meaningless.
because she is my meaning in life.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
happy birthdae
So finally it ended - the dreaded 'A' Levels has passed.
I guess I have to do some sort of conclusion;
Conclusion on my 14 years of study life.
Conclusion on my teenage life.
I say that the lvls exams i have been thru are quite okay,
except for some disappointments that everyone may have.
Generally i think that general paper sucks(esp for paper 2)
Maths was challenging (to me) and i really hope i can get an A.
Chem was quite a disaster for me.. becos my paper 3 is not v good i guess.
considering also my pathetic spa results which i think i have gotten,
i really really hope its an A too..
Physics was quite alright. But paper 3 was too qualitative to my liking.
Computing was very okay. since most of the questions came from past year.
Wish nth bad happens!
Maths s paper was hmm.. i guess okay. Since i have mixed feelings for it.
On one hand i definitely did way better than prelims (i got 27/100!!!),
on the other hand.. i think i will have a medicore, if not, unimpressive result. Really hope to get merit!
Physics was quite easy.. except for the stupid electricity qns i knew i shldnt have attempted. Hoping for a dist!
Well i guess after we took the paper we can more or less know the results. And we have no need to hide them or run away from them. well.. the actual results come 4 months later. I really hope i will get better than wad i expect!
and.. its 5 mins early.. but..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
My blog is 2 years old!
why do i sound happy when im not? and it often leads to misunderstandings
I guess I have to do some sort of conclusion;
Conclusion on my 14 years of study life.
Conclusion on my teenage life.
I say that the lvls exams i have been thru are quite okay,
except for some disappointments that everyone may have.
Generally i think that general paper sucks(esp for paper 2)
Maths was challenging (to me) and i really hope i can get an A.
Chem was quite a disaster for me.. becos my paper 3 is not v good i guess.
considering also my pathetic spa results which i think i have gotten,
i really really hope its an A too..
Physics was quite alright. But paper 3 was too qualitative to my liking.
Computing was very okay. since most of the questions came from past year.
Wish nth bad happens!
Maths s paper was hmm.. i guess okay. Since i have mixed feelings for it.
On one hand i definitely did way better than prelims (i got 27/100!!!),
on the other hand.. i think i will have a medicore, if not, unimpressive result. Really hope to get merit!
Physics was quite easy.. except for the stupid electricity qns i knew i shldnt have attempted. Hoping for a dist!
Well i guess after we took the paper we can more or less know the results. And we have no need to hide them or run away from them. well.. the actual results come 4 months later. I really hope i will get better than wad i expect!
and.. its 5 mins early.. but..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
My blog is 2 years old!
why do i sound happy when im not? and it often leads to misunderstandings
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
天灰
如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远
想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭
如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远
想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭
如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁
Saturday, October 28, 2006
an imminent bye, a permanent sigh..
A lvls is just days away..
Although i think that A lvls are not that important to me (becos i dont intend to take on intensive courses in uni), im feeling abit worried.. who noes why..
but what worries me more is what's after it. NS... i wonder if after the two years i will be the same? i wonder if you will still remember that there is someone like me who long to be by your side.
as exams comes.. i start to play more.. maybe my concentration span is up.. no no no.. i cannot be giving myself excuses! i must continue to study!
(out of sudden, i forgot what i wanted to blog before i wrote these, maybe my mind knows that now is not the time to think about those stuff)
Although i think that A lvls are not that important to me (becos i dont intend to take on intensive courses in uni), im feeling abit worried.. who noes why..
but what worries me more is what's after it. NS... i wonder if after the two years i will be the same? i wonder if you will still remember that there is someone like me who long to be by your side.
as exams comes.. i start to play more.. maybe my concentration span is up.. no no no.. i cannot be giving myself excuses! i must continue to study!
(out of sudden, i forgot what i wanted to blog before i wrote these, maybe my mind knows that now is not the time to think about those stuff)
Friday, October 20, 2006
In these cold nights
haix... the thought of army saddens me.
i need to do alot alot things after A's..
but i have only 1 month now le..
j4n thirteenth.. i received my deathnote on the eve of deathnote's release..
anyway.. past 2 hours have been freecell.. i was stuck on this game #17803 yesterday
i woke up today dreaming of it.. and finally!
I knew i won when i saw this!
i need to do alot alot things after A's..
but i have only 1 month now le..
j4n thirteenth.. i received my deathnote on the eve of deathnote's release..
anyway.. past 2 hours have been freecell.. i was stuck on this game #17803 yesterday
i woke up today dreaming of it.. and finally!
I knew i won when i saw this!
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Keane - Hamburg Song
I don't want to be adored
Don't want to be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved
No, don't want to be the only one you know
I want to be the place you call home
I lay myself down to make it so
But you don't want to know
I give much more than I'd ever ask for
Will you see me in the end?
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend?
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
And warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple
I lay myself down to make it so
But you don't want to know
You take much more than I'd ever ask for
Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way
To lay yourself down and make it so?
But you don't want to know
You take much more than I'd ever ask for
Don't want to be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved
No, don't want to be the only one you know
I want to be the place you call home
I lay myself down to make it so
But you don't want to know
I give much more than I'd ever ask for
Will you see me in the end?
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend?
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
And warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple
I lay myself down to make it so
But you don't want to know
You take much more than I'd ever ask for
Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way
To lay yourself down and make it so?
But you don't want to know
You take much more than I'd ever ask for
Saturday, October 07, 2006
The Way You Look at Me
prelims are long gone.
we have slightly less than 4 weeks left.
But im still stucked.
I have no mood for anything, for games and for study.
My results is half-satisfying with AACD and C6..
guess the gp and maths are slightly if not very disappointing for me.
How can i get a D for maths when im actually maths s paper..
but i can solve harder questions if given the time..
guess i lack exposure and the practice.
a result of not doing tutorials
maybe there will be a change of blog skin..
we have slightly less than 4 weeks left.
But im still stucked.
I have no mood for anything, for games and for study.
My results is half-satisfying with AACD and C6..
guess the gp and maths are slightly if not very disappointing for me.
How can i get a D for maths when im actually maths s paper..
but i can solve harder questions if given the time..
guess i lack exposure and the practice.
a result of not doing tutorials
maybe there will be a change of blog skin..
Thursday, October 05, 2006
neither here nor there
Maybe life is described by this principle?
Completely ridiculous anthropic principle (CRAP): "At the instant the Omega Point is reached, life will have gained control of all matter and forces not only in a single universe, but in all universes whose existence is logically possible; life will have spread into all spatial regions in all universes which could logically exist, and will have stored an infinite amount of information, including all bits of knowledge which it is logically possible to know. And this is the end."
Completely ridiculous anthropic principle (CRAP): "At the instant the Omega Point is reached, life will have gained control of all matter and forces not only in a single universe, but in all universes whose existence is logically possible; life will have spread into all spatial regions in all universes which could logically exist, and will have stored an infinite amount of information, including all bits of knowledge which it is logically possible to know. And this is the end."
Sunday, October 01, 2006
stuck on you
Have you ever felt that you wanted someone to talk to,
but yet knowing that there will not be anyone who truly listens?
Have you ever felt that all of the sudden,
after so much time of fun and laughter,
the place quietens down, almost in a way hopelessly?
Have you felt that all of the sudden everything closes onto you,
when u realise the fact that no one really cares about you except your own self?
Even if there is a person who cares, it must be very fortunate to have,
and very difficult to find?
Have you felt that life is just a journey where you have to walk alone,
that no one really cares where did you go after it ends?
Have you been in a broken family?
Have you been jealous?
Have you been jealous and then given up on the differences,
planning not to do anything about it as it is all fate?
Has fate played you?
Have you asked so many questions knowing that no one can better answer in a way you like it except yourself?
Have you been in love?
Have you thought that the person loved you, only to find out later that it has been all but an unfortunate misunderstanding which only a foolish mind like yours will plunge deep into?
Have you been thinking like me?
Have you been thinking of me..?
but yet knowing that there will not be anyone who truly listens?
Have you ever felt that all of the sudden,
after so much time of fun and laughter,
the place quietens down, almost in a way hopelessly?
Have you felt that all of the sudden everything closes onto you,
when u realise the fact that no one really cares about you except your own self?
Even if there is a person who cares, it must be very fortunate to have,
and very difficult to find?
Have you felt that life is just a journey where you have to walk alone,
that no one really cares where did you go after it ends?
Have you been in a broken family?
Have you been jealous?
Have you been jealous and then given up on the differences,
planning not to do anything about it as it is all fate?
Has fate played you?
Have you asked so many questions knowing that no one can better answer in a way you like it except yourself?
Have you been in love?
Have you thought that the person loved you, only to find out later that it has been all but an unfortunate misunderstanding which only a foolish mind like yours will plunge deep into?
Have you been thinking like me?
Have you been thinking of me..?
Friday, September 29, 2006
chasing cars
I'm afraid that my curiousity would cause me to take on a course of Physics in the new future. A course surely of busyness and loniliness (if i will realise it). But what is loniless but just a series chemical reaction in my body telling me i need (do i?) a company. But of couse the world of future is too uncertain, let alone exploring the future.. that sometimes, regretably due to the chemical reaction's cousins, i find it too much of a bother.
Therefore, I guess i would most likely continue to "live a normal life".
Therefore, I guess i would most likely continue to "live a normal life".
this is taken from Stephen Hawking's web, do read the public lectures if anyone is free! its an incredibly good read!
Since events before the Big Bang have no observational consequences, one may as well cut them out of the theory, and say that time began at the Big Bang. Events before the Big Bang, are simply not defined, because there's no way one could measure what happened at them. This kind of beginning to the universe, and of time itself, is very different to the beginnings that had been considered earlier. These had to be imposed on the universe by some external agency. There is no dynamical reason why the motion of bodies in the solar system can not be extrapolated back in time, far beyond four thousand and four BC, the date for the creation of the universe, according to the book of Genesis. Thus it would require the direct intervention of God, if the universe began at that date. By contrast, the Big Bang is a beginning that is required by the dynamical laws that govern the universe. It is therefore intrinsic to the universe, and is not imposed on it from outside.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
my love.
I know love is with the heart
and shown with action.
I know love is not merely words like
the following:
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anyway, just to let you know
i really love you.
and shown with action.
I know love is not merely words like
the following:
i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you
anyway, just to let you know
i really love you.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Saturday, September 23, 2006
and i do question life.
humans are interesting. let alone life.
just only a few decades ago, people do not even have proper clothing or food,
and they worry not about starving or being less nicely attired.
They worry about how are they going to support their family.
Maybe we are too spoilt? We worry about what to eat, even though we already have food. We worry about love, when we cant even afford the Marriage Preparory Programme (it costs money i think?). We worry about what to do in our spare time, how we look in front of the mirror, the clothes we wear, the shampoo we use, the bag we sling, the perfume we carry (perfume!!?!?!?), the movies we watch, the results we get, the course we going to take, the job we pursue, the time we wait.
I guess we worry about the wrong things? What's worrying is why people are worrying.
If life brings you where you go, as if anything is going to change if u worked abit harder, stayed abit longer, write abit faster, walked abit slower, think abit further, born abit earlier, born abit prettier, be abit richer.
Instead, it is all in the mind. You are who you think you are. If you think you are a failure, you are already am. If you think you are a winner, you are. If you can feel happy living with 5 dollars a day, you are. If you think that the results u get is superly fantastic, you will feel happy. Life is much more happier when you think about it happier.
Ask yourself, if you have all that you want to have now, wouldn't you start wanting to have more? Perhaps.. the meaning of life?
just only a few decades ago, people do not even have proper clothing or food,
and they worry not about starving or being less nicely attired.
They worry about how are they going to support their family.
Maybe we are too spoilt? We worry about what to eat, even though we already have food. We worry about love, when we cant even afford the Marriage Preparory Programme (it costs money i think?). We worry about what to do in our spare time, how we look in front of the mirror, the clothes we wear, the shampoo we use, the bag we sling, the perfume we carry (perfume!!?!?!?), the movies we watch, the results we get, the course we going to take, the job we pursue, the time we wait.
I guess we worry about the wrong things? What's worrying is why people are worrying.
If life brings you where you go, as if anything is going to change if u worked abit harder, stayed abit longer, write abit faster, walked abit slower, think abit further, born abit earlier, born abit prettier, be abit richer.
Instead, it is all in the mind. You are who you think you are. If you think you are a failure, you are already am. If you think you are a winner, you are. If you can feel happy living with 5 dollars a day, you are. If you think that the results u get is superly fantastic, you will feel happy. Life is much more happier when you think about it happier.
Ask yourself, if you have all that you want to have now, wouldn't you start wanting to have more? Perhaps.. the meaning of life?
Monday, September 18, 2006
Sunday, September 17, 2006
why do movies make me cry
do you understand how it is like to wake up every morning not knowing what you are living for? Is it to earn money? Is it to achieve your dream of becoming an pop star, or maybe, a scientist, or maybe, the richest guy in the world?
I know what i want. I want a house where i will spend the rest of my life with the woman i love. I want to have kids. To have daughters who look like their mother. To have sons who look like me. I want a nice backyard, where my children can chase after me; and me after our dog. I want to kiss my wife goodnight, every night.
I want a simple, happy and fulfilling life.
And on this lonely night, i wish you goodnight.
I know what i want. I want a house where i will spend the rest of my life with the woman i love. I want to have kids. To have daughters who look like their mother. To have sons who look like me. I want a nice backyard, where my children can chase after me; and me after our dog. I want to kiss my wife goodnight, every night.
I want a simple, happy and fulfilling life.
And on this lonely night, i wish you goodnight.
Friday, September 08, 2006
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