Fear F4ctor

i have exactly 12 hours left to my next 2 papers... computing and chem.
i have officially killed myself in my maths and physics common test...
maths nvr do 1 got 27 marks. do wrong 1 shld be ard 20. so i can expect 5x...
which i will surely get killed if my parents see it.

now shld i study computing?
i haf a feeling i chiong computing i still get v lan..
but if i chiong chem i sure get v lan also.
and chem got so much...

hmmm..

perhaps i shld slp first.. lol

The Amazing Race

I have to finish physics by today!
Can I make it in time?

Electric Field -- done
Capacitors -- done
Current Electricity -- done 3.47pm (pitstop now! 30mins - 1 hour lol)
DC circuits -- done
Magnetic Fields and Electromagnetism -- done 7.57 pm. (wa i slpt 2 hours and played 1 hour)
Electromagnetic Induction -- done
Alternating Current -- done 11.53pm (die le.. play too much.. tmr morning continue ba..)
Analogue Electronics -- done
Ideal Gas -- done
Charged Particle Dynamics -- done
Quantum Physics -- done 7.30pm sunday! omg.. gp how?

there will be no detour!

ahhhhhhhhh

i
am
going
to
fail
my
June
Common
Test

i cantttt concentrate on myy work anymoreeee....
cant study c0mputinggggggggggggggggg
my eye pain!!
ahhhh jiu ming!!

the most unplanned and rewarding experience..

i just came back from my cca farewell chalet..
only slept for 2 hours (5am - 7am) but i have just bathed
so my hair is wet and therefore i am here.. typing.

first of all. it wasnt anywhere near a farewell.
well think of farewell.. picture it in your minds..
you see people.. many people.. seniors and juniors..
meeting each other for the last time in a cca activity..
but the final result was.. there was only 2 yr1s that came.
those 2 who organised the whole thing despite lack of
help from the other year1s who were put in charge of this as well.
thank you you two..! for at least trying to send us farewell.
and also for your wonderful we duno what thing it is that is so chocolatey
and healthy and your nice nice post cards.

2ndly.. the co@sta s@nds chalet room really sux. spoilt aircon.. untunable and untuned tv. ant stampedes. no xbox. you name it. we've got it. and of cos we dont bother to call since we are only using it for like 2 days 1 nite which is actually 19 hours. by the time they got here, checked and repair i think it will be our 5th night.

thirdly. my senior has just POP'd (not pop! but you know.. passing of parade'd) and he shared very very funny stuff and very informative stuff. since i scared its sensitive i better not type anything. haha. but it is very interesting to have a extremely blur buddy haha.

as you can see.. im like so relaxed. like as if jct is next year.. i still got ihpc compy to do.. haix.
and by the way i wrote this entry you can tell my gp also gone case. intro nvr say wad i wan to say ah.. enumeration of points ar.. and short, undeveloped and unsupported paragraphs/ideas.

hey wait a min.. i have actually revised the basic requirements of an essay this way.. hmm not bad.. shld i blog some alkane allkenes stuff too? lol

i dont know why.

why why i have no mood to study?

oh
my
god
pls
tell
me
why..

i just cant put myself in studying mood.

maybe this will do..
CHEM - 2 years of stuff = 3% d0ne
COMPUTING - Almost 2 years of stuff = o% done
Maths - 1 year + of stuff = o% done
Physics - 1 year of stuff. = o% done

please help me!!

omg really gotta start now!

we had chemistry.

if you think im blogging about love this time.. you r wrong!

Chemistry.
Chemistry is a science subject.
Chemistry is a science subject that i failed.
Chemistry is a science subject that i failed like everyone else.
Chemistry is a bloody science subject that i failed miserably like everyone else.
Chemistry is a bloody difficult and nonsensical science subject that i failed so miserably and pathetically like everyone else.
Chemistry is a bloody annoying, difficult and nonsensical science subject that i failed so miserably and pathetically like everyone else which makes us look like fools.
Chemistry is a bloody annoying, difficult and nonsensical science subject that i failed so miserably and pathetically like everyone else which makes us look like fools without any clothes.
Chemistry is a bloody annoying, difficult and nonsensical science subject that i failed so miserably and pathetically like everyone else which makes us looks like fools without any clothes in the damn winter.
Chemistry is a bloody annoying, difficult and nonsensical science subject that i failed so miserably and pathetically like everyone else which makes us look like fools without any clothes in the damn winter licking the cold hard ice.
Chemistry is a bloody annoying, difficult and nonsensical science subject that i failed so miserably and pathetically like everyone else which makes us look like fools without any clothes in the damn winter licking the cold hard ice and idiots who dont give a damn about their studies.
Chemistry is a bloody annoying, difficult and nonsensical science subject that i failed so miserably and pathetically like everyone else which makes us look like fools without any clothes in the damn winter licking the cold hard ice and idiots who dont give a damn about their studies and blog whole day.
Chemistry is a bloody annoying, difficult and nonsensical science subject that i failed so miserably and pathetically like everyone else which makes us look like fools without any clothes in the damn winter licking the cold hard ice and idiots who dont give a damn about their studies and blog whole day waiting for boring people like you to read..

lol.. that was fun.
a nice break from chem.

wait a min.. did i start chem?

N4tional Service.

Hate it or loathe it.

WE (the guys of course) all have to do this. whether you like it or not. unless you are some guy rich enough to fly away~ and never return to singapore. you have to go through it. well you girls might think. what's the big deal? be a man. stop whinning.

we are not whinning because of our (rather the majority) physical being is incapable of doing so. nor are we complaining about the long hours of lifeless life (is there such a thing?) under the hot sun doing some freakish physical training or such stuff. it is the amount of things you will lose out during this time.

yes we should be doing this. we should defend our country.. but not by making us (majority) staying 24 hours during weekdays(of cos for some occasions outfield we should stay overnite for some consec days to train our endurance). how many relationships are broken just because of this ns thing? yes u may argue that if the relationships are strong and really meant to be.. no tides may overturn the boat! but really.. relationships still need maintenance. if some wacko trying to chase ur partner and they are in the same course in uni, well.. goodluck to you. Yes they will have lotsa time together. dont worry! for some 2 years(before we are able to get out of the 'jail' as some call it) !

and no! they wont be together! only if cows fly and pigs have afterburners.

assumption: "the guy is really sweet you know! he seems to understand me very well! And he's older than me by 2 years.. hmm yeah.. i think he's matured and will be you know.. able to take care of me"

not to mention singapore have low fidelity rate. yes i know. as well as fertility. but that doesnt mean they copulate less often. they use rUbBeR~

ahh sian. im whinning again.

all i can do is blame myself for being born quiet and lacking the gift of the gap.
and looks.. well its cant help it. born hideous. what can you do?

well i will be surprised if there is some girl out there who really dont give a dam about looks.
and is single! and takes a liking on me. lol.....?

yeah gibson. dream on.

long cold nights.

i dont know if you're feeling this way too..

but do you know the nights are getting longer and colder for me?
everytime i lie down on my bed,
my mind will be filled with you,
and memories of you.
i will remember the days where we were in reach,
the days we shared, though not us alone.

at least i was able to see your face then.
your face which lights up the darkness in my heart.
your face which fills the void in heart.

solitude. all that i have got left now is loneliness.
and its driving me crazy.
driving me thin.
and rotting my mind.

i have distanced from my friends. some of them distanced from me too.
i have said things that annoy.
and some things that are arrogant.
i want to be alone.
i only want you by my side.

i was a confident man.
i was agreeable.
i was.. cheerful.
but now im not.

i began to hate everything and everyone.
my mood becomes uncontrollable at times.

time.
time has a habit of slipping away.
you are always busy.
i guess that you didn't, don't and will not have time for me.
i know that you need someone to be there for you everytime you are feeling stressed.
i dont mind being a person who is needed temporarily by you.
to be discarded by you after that.
like a clothing.
at least a clothing can touch you.
shelter you from dirt, dust and rain.
keep you warm when you're cold.
at least i can be with you.

6 more months and i'll be gone.
i will have to serve ns.
and you will start a new life.
university life.
there where you will most likely find someone you like.
and he will be your shelter, your playmate, your listener
your lover, your life, your everything...

...my dream.

and there will be no more winter for you.
i will be nothing.


a winter clothing.

sanctuary.

this iwebmusic finally let me register.. so i put this very related song on my blog! lol.

but i will change it soon.. i have nicer songs!