time lag.

it's valentine's day today. im back to one year ago.

at the promised somewhere stands me. we could have been there together last year, and even this year.

i waited. waited for your shadow. be it if you were to pass by coincidently, i would be utmost contented. there i finished my food. thought of what we could be by now. thought of what we could be in the future. like a fantasing kid. but i dont want it to be a fantasy. i want it to be real. but time crept slowly, together with my hope.

a wasted trip people might say. but i think it was a rewarding trip. i was able to seclude myself from my daily work, and friends. spending the important 1 hour, hoping for a miracle. i asked you out a year ago, but ended up rejected. this year i didnt ask you out, and i waited for you there. isnt it funny?

a few more days before my last attempt and my life hinges on it.