white flag

I.. don't know why am i feeling this way..
So lost, so desolated.
Im afraid of thinking.. i avoid thinking.
Thinking of you, thinking of why things end up this way.

One thing for sure.. i still love you.
You told me to find a better girl..
I've tried telling myself that too.
But at night, im still thinking of you.

You haunt me.
You may hate me, but i wish i could hate you.
I just can't.
Im sorry.

Right now i can only hope.
Hope that you will be happy everyday.
Life's not long.
I wish you can enjoy every moment of it.

And so one year had past
So fast, it's like last year
was just yesterday.
So theres no problem with loving you another 99 years.

and of course, forever.

heres a song for this occasion:
Dido - White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of 'It's over'
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be