Merry X'mas.

If you can hear me say something today,
all I wish is to say "I Love You".
I know you don't even like me in any way,
Love can't be forced, yeah i know. And that's why I still love you.

I know I would be hurt. But I just have to keep on loving.
Once heard a saying "If people do not love you, love them anyway."
I hope you are really having a great time now..

A new year is coming. What can be new next year?
New sorrow? New sadness? Life's like this.
The more you expect the more you'll be disapointed.
So I'm not having any new year wishes for next yr.
Just living my life till it ends.

And I've got many many presents from my relatives. Thank you all! I like them very much.

Merry lonely x'mas gibson.

Always.

Always been wondering.
Always been afraid.
Always thinking.
Always you.

Always thought I knew.
Always you.
Always thought you knew.
Always me.

Always missing.
Always me and you.
Always waiting.
Always you.

Always me thinking.
Always silly things.
Always hurt.
But always worth it.
Always your happiness.

暧昧

杨丞琳-暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情
还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人
是不是同一个
真实的你
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里
wo……
hu…wo…

Dreams.

I dreamt of you last night.
Isn't surprising. I dream of you every night.
In my every dream you are smiling. and the smiles keep me going on.
I wonder when will I get to see you again.

I wish when the next time I see you,
you would smile like you did in my dreams.
But I know very well, dreams are dreams.
If dreams do come true so easily, there wouldn't be so many
going into great lengths to realise their dreams.

And so another day passes, without you.
I hate it. It's like I'd never lived at all.
All the time wasted when I'm not with you.
I pray I can see you soon enough.
and hope for the best when I really do see you.

Starry

Quietly, the starlight glows
Moments shared, not long ago
So true so long, hmm..

The stars above,
You and me in this glow.

The nights so dear, hmm..
Sparkling, dazzling
Stars and us alone.

I Love You

I love you, if it is what you need.
Would you mind me giving it to you?

Now that we're here, so far away.
Dreams are hard to share,
but i really hope
the one i dreamt is really you.

I love you, i truly do,
but what if i dont love you by saying,
I love you.. ?
I love you.

Hope you know.

That's Why You Go Away

I hope you are doing fine there without me,
cos I'm not doing so good without you.
My tomorrows are full of hopes,
Hopes I do not dare to dream about.

I know, the more I hope,
the more disapointment i will get.
And I wish you would hate me a little less,
I hope you would add me back.

But I know, it wouldn't be so soon.
I wonder why, but I'm certain I have to wait.
And so passes a lonely day,
a day without you.


MLTR - That's Why (You Go Away)

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

Chorus:
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

Chorus:
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong...

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

Chorus
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong...

lonely.

It's here again.
The lonely wind.
It sets me thinking of you,
your smile and your everything.

And I'm waiting,
as though tomorrow you'll be mine.
But that will never happen.
After all, I'm only your compassion.

I hope you'd be happy today,
all safe and fine.
And so I'd wait for you all the same,
until the day I'm yours.

white flag

I.. don't know why am i feeling this way..
So lost, so desolated.
Im afraid of thinking.. i avoid thinking.
Thinking of you, thinking of why things end up this way.

One thing for sure.. i still love you.
You told me to find a better girl..
I've tried telling myself that too.
But at night, im still thinking of you.

You haunt me.
You may hate me, but i wish i could hate you.
I just can't.
Im sorry.

Right now i can only hope.
Hope that you will be happy everyday.
Life's not long.
I wish you can enjoy every moment of it.

And so one year had past
So fast, it's like last year
was just yesterday.
So theres no problem with loving you another 99 years.

and of course, forever.

heres a song for this occasion:
Dido - White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of 'It's over'
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be