coincidence?

Brandy - Have You Ever? Lyrics


[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

Dead.

My graphics card is dead. ok i mean its fan.. i went to clean it.. then it didn't appreciate.. it just died after i've cleaned it.

now it cant last 5 mins of gta3 san andreas ='( (it could last 30mins - 1hr previously..) time to get a better gfx card or cooler.. zzz

so cold.

im.. so cold now. so alone. so afraid. so.. cold. it's so cold..

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im so fucked up in life that i dont want to say about it anymore.

wcg over. ok its over.

bought a mouse, or rather my aunt bought it for me. its my favourite razer copperhead first edition. most fucked up thing is.. tempest blue is more exp than other 2 colours (chaos green and red) by 20 dollars? i bought at 139.. i know.. im ripped off by challenger. but my aunt was there and lazy to go half a island to buy it at 129.

no games interest me except GTA which my comp cant play. will auto restart. video card overheat i suppose.

and i really screwed my life up so hard that its so holy(hole-y).

104th

our love becoming more fa wei. no more love. nobody cares. but who cares. as long as you care. but you dont care. so what now?

they say dont put too much love into someone who doesnt treasure. but true love dont expect returns. so what now? maybe im asking for things that are unreachable. true love. who gifs a shit. the girls dont. and the guys. so no one gifs a shit.

maybe im the unreachable one. but i think you're unreachable. time.. time is like poison.

maybe the love im finding is not from you. you are master at breaking my heart.

103rd

my watch is finally revived! the strap broke some days ago.. and i had to go to OP w/o a watch haha. Im quite weird 1.. i wear watch 24/7. even when i sleep. somehow if i dont feel a thing strapped at my wrist i will feel insecured. if i dunno the time when i wan to know i also will feel insecured. like lost. Lost in the space of time. haha. maybe im mad. but hey, isn't gibson mad?

yeah and the love story below is crap. dunno why everytime post those things few days later feel weird. then wan to remove it like that.. but since i spend so much time typing it i'll keep for my own reference nxt time ba.

so me and my love are still seperated. many evil ones are now asking my close frens who is that one hor.. let me tell u all myself. she's beautiful! yeah that's it. so you all know who to eliminate le hor? no more *man ok? lol...

actually alw see me type so happily rite.. i also actually dun feel happy de la.. maybe its my nature to bring smiles to the world or wad.. i have tried alot times when im really sad then i told myself to not to smile the whole day. in the end i dont even survive the morning assembly.. cos when i look at hui kiang, whose cg is beside me then i wan to laugh lol.. dont ask me why. he is also always grinning de.

so may all true lovers get their true love ba. sigh..

my love story.

when i crossed thousands of rivers and climbed over thousands of mountains to your mansion, all you did was smiling and waving at me behind the closed window. then there was rain and i was still outside your fence. i still waited until one day i fainted and someone sent me home using the address written on my identity card inside my wallet.

then you released your pigeon and it flew to my window once again. saying you love me and need me back.

once again i crossed those rivers and climbed over those mountains. i dont feel tired this time. because i knew i had you. but when i finally reached, you were inside your house again, by the window. this time you had flowers as well, and were smiling more beautifully. there again i waited.

this time i wondered.. is it that the pigeon had gone to the wrong window? maybe im just a beggar in her eyes which yearn for the sight of her lover.

oh how i wish i could faint again. this time waking up to feel like it had all been a dream.

101st

anyway that was the 100th post.. so there's no centennial post for my blog's bdae which is 25th nov. haha.

i hate nights. everytime when being forced to sleep.. i had to lie on the bed where i cannot sleep. then i would think about alot things again.. i sometimes would blame my parents for asking to sleep early as "wasting my youth" or rather recently where i subconsciously knew there's no more youth left, "wasting my life away". It's like im not tired, why make me sleep? Or rather, make me lie on the bede thinking crap.

then, i would think that doing what in life would have the most meaning in life. because mapling 24 hours a day is crap although its fun sometimes. should i go find a girl of my dreams and ask her to roam the world with me and when we saw a very very nice place like a grassland beside a seashore(must be clean shore, no sharks, hahaha) then we would build a house (or rather find someone to build cos it will be more comfy.. imagine all hardwood then alot splinters haha. i would prefer ceremics then..) At night, she wont find gazing the stars with me a bore... then we have lots of kids..... but then again, where do i find food? if can find then where would i find the money? lol.. so its money matters again. dam sian. Then again, where would i find such a girl? even when i think i already have.. but i think she wont do such things with me la? right? (hopefully she will...)

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