random thoughts

really nothing to do now.. just finished physics spa today so decide to take a rest for the rest of the day(since when i didnt)

anyway.. since im blogging so i think i shld blog more useful stuff ba.. below are my some of my opinions that may serve as food for thoughts~ for some people.. if u disagree nvm! cos its just some opinions and random thoughts..

most of us usually compare ourselves with people around us or compare others with others or compare wad u did last time and now.. so comparation is unavoidable.. even some parents like to compare u btw siblings or relatives' children (like mine).. well i guess for 1 to be v successful.. if u wan to compare urself with something or someone.. always comapre urself with the best.
for eg. right now im in scg 1.6/0_5.. my class l1r5 entry score is 2nd lousiest but we blah blah blah.. (summary: my class is a average class, no foreign talents, no intensive muggers) .. and so i topped my class(i believe so..) this jct.. yeah i know i mention this qutie a few times but pls be understandable.. i first time get leh! for my whole life!
anyway back to topic.. i think if u compare me with my classmates(not saying their lousy..) and say im shen(god in chinese.. i know its a offence to some.. esp christians..) which my classmates are doing now.. its abit useless.. rather than encouragement or praising, u are making me hard for me to improve.. becos u have all made me feel that im the best already..
but the fact is there is alot... alot..... alottt....... allotttttt. more people smarter than me.. for example 1 guy in tj named Chong Yue (oops) is a chinese scholar and he had just won gold for singapore maths olympiad (SMO).. got A for discrete maths (i got D and i was already damn happy..) and he is selected for physics olympiad and he missed 3 lessons but he still looks as confident as ever.. its like.. wtf.. and i think he got chem olympiad somemore.. (inference in case u dont get it: he is trip sci and not Fmaths and he still won SMO gold wth..)
and there is the indian scholar in discrete maths who got A+ for it.. and teacher said he got the Ph.D calibre... wth...
maybe im getting jealous lolz.. sometimes i feel that if i cant be a best at something then its like life is wasted.. (not saying that you people not best at something then not fit to live.. pls english..)
its like.. people can do it. u arent any more disabled.. so u sure can do it too..
but im already discovering the limits of my capabilities in maths.. or rather discrete maths.. too much study has killed my innovative thinking.. i cant solve maths problems specially oftenly already. (specially oftenly already lolz..)

and i still haven tot of wad job i shld have for future.. will talk about this next blog

where are you..?