the only permanent thing in life is change

before:
whole night of 28th july was spent trying to install win 7 itself, where there was always a stuck in the installation after numerous tries. I was too tired and went to sleep with a disabled PC.

Woke up on 30th july feeling energised again, I tried to install win 7 again, getting the same result (stuck at 0% of Expanding windows files).

Found a completely unburned sector(s) on the install disk and became very suspicious. I went on to plug back my old HDD, did a little google, and burned a brand new disk using the Windows 7 USB/DVD download tool. Viola, disk looks perfectly burned now. Even made a bootable USB drive just in case.

10.30am~ish. Elated to see % get past 0... 1..2..3...90..91....99.....100!!!

11am~ish.

there are still much more to be done -- installing important progs and migrating my whole hdd over

[continued]

migrating software i used. dled norton ghost 15 and acronis, but in the end this simple program is all i need.

successfully migrated my most recent HDD. went on to migrate the HDD i had before that (used back in the JC days).

failed many times. went on to do chkdsk several times. realised that chkdsk can actually be done in windows! (provided the drive is not in use of course)

my last try before totally giving up..

success!!

tada!!

(yes you are not mistaken, thats the d2 icon - back in those days where there were no daemon tools, i copied the whole d2 disk to my hdd to act as a play disk/install disk)

Shutdown and removed the ancient HDD.

End product:

Oh my thats like one whole day spent. But definitely worth it. Now i have 3 generations of hard disks in a single hard disk!

Now~ to slowly fill the 2 very empty bars that i have. haha!

- the end -

my last post... before i go for my first ICT

haha. kinda having a little weird feeling now. i guess its a combination of not having anything to do now and a little bit of anxiety for wad may come for ICT. reminds me of the first day of NS.

difference is that i dont have to carry a sdfgdakjhgdds big bag all across the island.

Beacons

It's funny how we would want to share our thoughts yet keep the innermost ones out of everyone's reach. It's such an irony that this archaic blog of mine was named The Sanctuary because in the end most of the time it is actually a 100m range for my rant bullets.

Things around us move on, people too. So what if i remain unchanged, feelings and dedication and all. Would I stay relevant?

I envy practical people. They make decisions and move on. Maybe i dislike them for their trend. Or maybe im just jealous.

I think im just irrelevant in this society.

Outdated values.




People call me pessimistic, but i trust my judgement.
We are losing time all the while,
and we dont have much to dither with false hopes and expectations.

We are aging.
I thought i can just waste my life away doing nothing, but where exactly is this feeling of anxiety coming from?

My future is dim. And there are no lighthouses for me.
No harbour to dock,
I sail away to my distant memories.

You're the only star, in the film I never made.

im super bored

despair

http://www.facebook.com/notes/jansen-ko/letter-to-a-christian-girlfriend/331261178826

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
-William Butler Yeats

Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able?
Then he is not omnipotent.
Is he able, but not willing?
Then he is malevolent.
Is he both able and willing?
Then whence cometh evil?
Is he neither able nor willing?
Then why call him God?"
- Epicurus

this place sux

i feel sg sux to the core.

it seems like people here(note i didnt mention sg-reans) are so self-absorbed, that complaining about their self-absorbedness, makes me look self-absorbed.

am i supposed to feel sympathetic about people who are so "busy" who can go overseas trips and have fun in camps so much so that they cant accomplish their SUPPOSED tasks?

am i supposed to do all their tasks for them just because i leave more personal time to well, myself? not that i want to, but i dont have the money for such a busy schedule. Even travelling to orchard road everyday just for walks would cost alot of money(from transport fees).

so im being LAZY i guess.

sg sux totally.

and i fking hate to be in super inefficient managements. ARGH!

people whom i want to thank

albom mitch

andrew furmanczyk

currently, this list has only one name, but of course this is not all.

the names that im going to put in here are people who inspired or helped me deeply one way or another. (but sad to say i may somehow forget, so im doing this in case of that:))

things to do: in life

not done, somewhat done, done!

be in love with someone

travel around the world with her

- europe, japan, usa, canada(or somewhere cold)

marry her

start a family

tour with kids

watch the children grow up

be proud of them

retire happily

grow old with the one i love

rest in peace

:)

the black swan

suppose earth was destroyed and a few people managed to hop on to a space shuttle designed for sustainable life in space.

suppose if there are 1 bil bacteria(just a rough figure for simplicity sake) living in an enclosed space, and there is 1:1billion chance that a bacteria would mutate to be able to wipe off humankind easily. now can you realise the significance of such a black swan?

a low probability event that has an extremely heavy consequence.

when i uplorry

its been a very long time since i really blogged about myself and my life. haha. even if one day there is a possibility of me being famous, and have the luck to have a biographer, please please dear biographer, please do note that this blog is more of a target board for my rants and it does not truly reflect my true self! hahaha! cant believe im talking to my 'biographer' now.

but well, let today be an exception to the norm.

okay, on this nice cloudy day (to be considered chilly for this little island of singapore) i went bowling with my stats/chem frens. had quite alot of fun. and i finally get to know how to bowl by adding spin to the ball! u know those kind where e ball seems like dropping into e long kang but manages to spin back into e middle chioness!

haha but now my middle 2 fingers are hurting bad, because while experimenting, i hurt my hand during a time when e ball hit e ground early, with my fingers still inside e ball :'(.

--

i cant believe that i had done really nothing tonight. :'( i wish to be more productive but i want to have fun as well. hmm this problem would be solved if i can find something that i like doing, that will at e same time contribute to my life?

that is something i may never be lucky enough to find in my lifetime!

alright off to sleep, or to perhaps to read some books i have bt'ed!

you all know what to do when things go out of hand haha

CDTL presents

Mental Health First Aid (MHFA)

(An NUS Student Workshop)

Facilitators : Dr Ann-Marie Lew, Clinical Psychologist and Ms Florence Yoo, Counsellor

University Health Centre

Date : 13 & 14 May 2010 (Thursday and Friday)

Time : 9am to 5pm

Venue : Seminar Room 1, CDTL http://www.cdtl.nus.edu.sg/cdtlhome/gettocdtl.htm

Synopsis

Do you know someone with a mental health concern? Do you know someone who has ever encountered a mental health crisis? This 12-hour course is designed to improve your mental health literacy and give you skills to help others who may be developing a mental health concern or may be facing a mental health crisis situation. MHFA was developed by Betty Kitchener and Professor Tony Jorm in Australia, and is under the auspices of the ORYGEN Research Centre at the University of Melbourne

http://www.personalitytest.net/types/descriptions/infp.htm

haha i realised i took this test about 4 or more years ago, and i was INTJ and now im INFP.

i guess people do change a little

update at 4.30am:

i cant believe what i did but i actually repaired my calculator at this unholy hour!! wow thats like so much money and trouble saved.

what happened to my calculator was that since after secondary school the screen has stopped showing the middle line of pixels(at the top row of numbers where it shows your previous actions). that made it incredibly difficult to tell + from the divide sign, and between 8, 9, 6, 3 and 0, completely miss the - sign when i was queuing up operations!

this year, the top line was also gone, that made things really worse.

well today i have had enough and i opened the calculator and miraculously managed to 'debug' the problem, and did some improvisations to my calculator. haha perhaps it may exploded any time, but who cares! well im so happy now! i just hope it still gives me accurate calculations lol!

im running out of songs to play while im studying..

and,

i guess my whole life is a freaking joke.

list v.2010.04.22

ok, this is not a list for wad i have to study, instead it would be wad i want to do in the holidays! haha this will act as a motivation.

- read The Black Swan

- read one of Richard Dawkin's books

- grab a book from each genre of stats to decide where i want to go from here!

to be updated~

coool! perhaps next time ipad liao can expand the pathetic space for bigger keys. imagine if one person buys 4 ipads.. oh i forgot, iPhones are more expensive than ipads ...

To Do list v.03.04.10

SP1201

$%^%$& report

ST2131

tutorial

MA1104:

Lab assignment 4

webcast/tutorial

MA2213:

hw assignment

edmw serious and good read http://forums.hardwarezone.com.sg/showthread.php?t=2716040&page=2

and sth interesting

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=csGOJ9IGxQk&feature=player_embedded

human

edit: 29/03/10

i started this post wanting to talk about the lack of human-ity in singapore.

to be precise, i target more specifically the lack of:

scenes of happy children running about on the streets:

they are in schools

smiling faces in the morning:

we dont smile when we experience winzip every 3 mins or so on the MRT

trails, or at least, slight hints of kindness in this polymorphic glob of land human mass:

we could perhaps blame the coagulation of excess and unneeded 'talents'!

of course i have to understand that this is no utopia, this is singapore.

a commercialised nation market where demand are always met with supplies and every entity, including its people capital goods can be put on a price tag.

haha just some random rants while waiting my hp to charge and trying to keep my mind off my unfinished tutorial which is impossible to complete.

i would love to move to some place where i dont have to go to bed everyday thinking yet another day have passed with me doing not the things that i want, and thinking, just thinking, and perhaps too much, that i am simply wasting my life away.

i want to LIVE!! how can i do so?! :'(

humans see humans do

part 1:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIAoJsS9Ix8&feature=related

part 2:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHuagL7x5Wc&feature=related

perhaps this is how so many people all over the world are being exploited out of our human born traits.

this is how propaganda succeed