this is what i do when im bored.

I have just had a breakthrough on my theory of fate.

** We cannot use the present to know the past - it would be at most a intelligent guess, but we can use the present to predict the future. **

Please put this quote to my name next time so i get famous ok? hahaha.

to show u some examples i can think of,

lets say in front of you is a car accident,

with this information and all the things you have, you could not have known what really really happened(assuming the driver and his passenger died soon after). It could be that they quarrelled on the car, then the driver maybe dulan and go crash the car against the curb that caused the car to overturned and killed both of them. It could also be that the driver sneezed and or fell asleep that the car accidentally went on the curb and the car overturned and killed them.  

what you know now, the both of them bleeding profusely, and suppose this is outside sungei gedong road, and in 1 km you have sungei gedong medical centre, and probably 10km you have NUH, then lets say singapore no more money for helicopter, and your battery no batt. you can know with information that you are able to obtain that the two person are going to die.

to see this in terms of functions, A -> B.

Lets say current situation is A1, and it is defined by causal and deterministic laws that B1 will definitely happen. B1 will happen.

but if event B1 happened, you cant be sure that it was A1 which caused it.

This is something like your A maths where you have to this function is 1-1 and is not likewise with f inverse.

Gibson's First Law of Fate:

So with all the information available and extractable, we are only able to predict the future.

In equation form, A->B =/= B-> A

though the idea is simple, i will define this as my first law.(susceptible to changes)

by the way, there are no such thing as miracles or perfectly random events. (even dice tossing if you can control the angular velocity and height and time of flight, fluid properties(unless u throw it on vacuum) and surface properties of table (or hand if u catches it) and so many more factors, a certain result would most definitely occur).

passion. find me.

because i have nothing to do.

because i dont know what to do.

because i dont know what i love to do.

i am, 

inhuman.

inhuman.

inhuman.

kill me if im not already dead.

not alive, but half dead.

not alive, but half dead.

my life.

end it. end it. end it.

for me.

please.

something random :)

sumqingwei says:
fman go watch what show
sumqingwei says:
tv?
Gibson says:
duno him
Gibson says:
the art of killing
sumqingwei says:
haha
Gibson says:
Long Division of humans
Gibson says:
High Performance Killing
sumqingwei says:
haha
Gibson says:
haha i just tot of a random idea
Gibson says:
if u managed to stop photons in a room
Gibson says:
wad will u see
Gibson says:
then photons wont hit your eyes
Gibson says:
unless u move to them
sumqingwei says:
err particles of light?
Gibson says:
ya
Gibson says:
so if u move closer to another object or person
Gibson says:
u can actually see what u suppose to see 0.0000000000000000000000000001 second later
Gibson says:
then if u walked backwards
Gibson says:
u can actually see what happened 0.0000000000000000000001s before
Gibson says:
v interesting rite
sumqingwei says:
that is if u can stop light?
Gibson says:
ya la
sumqingwei says:
if cannot stop means u must move faster than speed of light?
sumqingwei says:
lol
Gibson says:
actually i had done it
Gibson says:
everyone had done it
Gibson says:
haha
Gibson says:
not stopped la
Gibson says:
but captured it
Gibson says:
cameras haha
Gibson says:
photos and videos
sumqingwei says:
lol -.-
Gibson says:
captured the state of it
Gibson says:
haha really... sia
Gibson says:
amazing rite
sumqingwei says:
study physics
Gibson says:
must blog this
Gibson says:
stop typing ah.. i copy our convo

fast and furious

wow.. just when i wanted to sleep i suddenly saw this!!

D: 1.7mb/s!!! download!! omg

dropped back 100+kb/s le..

lol and what a nice pattern the graph have.. like ancient character of shan(mountain)

it dropped at the end because that particular torrent dl finish liao.

how i wish everyday dl so fast.. 

I applied into MIT and I got in!

hahahahaha.. i anyhow apply then i got in!

i must jia you from now on.. everyone gimme support k? dont call me up for movies on times I have lectures/tutorials :)

Was too boring I had to blog.

I have officially slacked for 4 months. its omfg when i realised it. Though it didn't felt long, but I'm currently bored to the state that playing games could make insane, and I can't last for more than 30mins each game I tried to play!

to be contined.. i try a new game

target update 20/01/2009

things to do before uni:

learn guitar # halfway!

learn piano

learn tennis 

decide what to do in life

learn economics # started first page but kinda stopped..

learn statistics 

play ra3 ~ done!

play call of duty 5 ~ done!

play grand theft auto 4 # started, but my comp laggy so gave up and wait for comp upgrade

play starcraft 2

play diablo 3

watch heroes # reached current episode

watch gossip girl # reached current episode

watch bleach # reached current episode

watch code geass ~ done!

watch all movies i have # dling and watching..

get a job

get a new camera fone ~ done!

get a laptop

get a new pair of spectacles/contacts

get a guitar capo ~ done!

get a electric tuner (temporarily replaced by microphone and a neat software on my comp)

- those without tag are still untouched :'(

I wonder was i so focused all along or this thing really helped me to be very focused! Seems like i'm doing good and not wasting my life, though i definitely feel im wasting my life(wake up(12am), play comp, play guitar, eat, play comp, play guitar, play comp, eat, play comp, read book, sleep(2am))

even though I don't have high expectations of life, but still i feel that i might be disadvantaged by doing these instead of paving my way to a better career - building up networks, signing up internships, research and data collection. ALL THESE makes our life so commercialised. It's like one is measuring his/her quality of life using career success as a gauge. 

There are 2 things I especially hate. People who make money USING friends, and the act of people making friends just to make money(or make use of them). I f-word-ing despise them. Sorry for my strong emotions :'(

green green green

im old already

To anyone who is reading this, you are hereby coardially invited to my birthday celebration!

WHAT?:
Gibson's 21st Birthday

WHERE??:
Aloha Changi, Yacht Club Chalet (see map for YCC)

WHEN???:
23 Jan 2009 (Fri), 6.30pm – 10.30pm (9pm cake cutting)

HOW????:
From Tampines Int, take bus 29 to GOVT CHALETS bus stop on Netheravon Rd.

There will be buffet dinner catered. Feel free to bring your +1s :)

Kindly RSVP* by 20 Jan 2009, so I can make arrangements for the food! 

Sorry most likely no bbq, cause already catering food. But if anybody wants, you can make use of my bbq pit by holding your own gathering there. The more the merrier. :)  

Map:

*just inform me who coming can le. tag or msn or sms me also can

Welcome to 2009

2008's wishlist:
1. get out of army alive.
2. make more friends.
3. completely get rid of my acne.
4. stay happy and healthy.
5. everyone's wishes comes true.
6.
7. world a better place.

Legend: Fulfilled, somewhat fulfilled, obviously not fulfilled

1. ok im talking now! so really glad!

2. okay.. it's mathematically correct so ya..

3. more or less

4. this is abit grey.. should have made it more clear. Cos 365 days ago i wasn't really happy either. 1 year ago i could do 2.4km in about 9mins and maybe below, but now after nua for so many months i doubt i can be nowhere near that la.. so erm.. more or less.

5. i dont know. maybe you do..? but i tink some have some dont have.

6. still trying my best

7. guess i dont need to explain much

Ok.. in overall, 2008 was a freaking fast year. The time when I had to do guard duty on 1/1/08 seems only days ago. Perhaps its army army army all the way, and the cool taiwan trip. Busy life passes very fast i guess.

RESOLUTION FOR 2009 

1. Feel that i have chosen the right uni course

2. BE HAPPY

3. Spend my pre uni time wisely

4. IPPT GOLD PLEASE ($400!!!!!!!)

5. Have more friends!

6.

7. Master guitar to a pro level ok?

Oh and i saw from yahoo that one should not make resolutions about one's physical aspect(fatter/thinner etc) cos will cause depression :'(

another lonely christmas gone

new year is coming.. i need a job!!

been learning guitar the past few days.. so much that my left hand fingertips are so numb and sore and lil blue black :(.

nth to do.. and very sian, i shall update my "want" list..

things to do before uni:

learn guitar # halfway!

learn piano

learn tennis 

decide what to do in life

learn economics # started first page but kinda stopped..

learn statistics 

play ra3 ~ done!

play call of duty 5 ~ done!

play grand theft auto 4 # started, but my comp laggy so gave up and wait for comp upgrade

play starcraft 2

play diablo 3

watch heroes # halfway

watch gossip girl # reached current episode

watch bleach # reached current episode

watch code geass # left last 2 episode bu she de finish.. lol

watch all movies i have # dling and watching..

get a job

get a new camera fone

get a laptop

get a new pair of spectacles/contacts

get a guitar capo ~ done!

get a electric tuner (temporarily replaced by microphone and a neat software on my comp)

- those in blue are newly added!

- those without tag are still untouched :'(

not bad not bad!! 

almost half all done/reached maximum state

the buying of things one... wait i get job then she de buy.. 

or my bdae actually quite near you know... *hint hint*

update: bought the capo!

today, tomorrow

sometimes i feel singapore is not a very good place to be, and maybe the younger generation are getting more and more sheltered. I actually saw a thread on a forum titled Is it a MUST to offer seat to the pregnant or elderly. It's kinda sad hearing people asking this question. A singaporean especially. 

It seems the people these days have to be told what they should do? This kind of question don't need to be asked in the first place. If one have the heart or consideration for others.. it comes naturally. It's not something under your moral dictionary, and if you have one.. i dont know why you even need it. 

DOES anyone need to teach you to respect your parents? DOES anyone need to teach you not to bite the hands that bring you food? 

Feeling kinda crap now.

look what you've done

Was emoing and looking for old songs awhile then i found an old post of mine.. cant believe 4 years ago i talked like this! hahaha. but definitely that was a crazy day..

oh.. the song i was looking for is a special songs with its lyrics broken up and at midway of the song, it is sung from bottom up! v nice! but i forgot name liao.. if anyone know pls tell me..

SATURDAY, DECEMBER 18, 2004

Michelle Branch rox! Actually i mean her songs =) 

Yes! I have been posted to another JC, NOT VJ! Why? Hahaha, cos i suck! Nvm about that. Different Jc so what? Haah. 

Yeah, saw the fat man inside VJC General Office today! He is so chubby i almost wanted to squeeze his cheeky cheeks! Oh im getting crazy! I submitted a 1cm thick appeal to the office HAHAHA. Actually not 1cm la.. around.. 3mm and i mean it! Total of 17 pages :) 

1st page is the form itself. 2nd and 3rd are sec3/4 results. 4th is PAE verification form. 5th is CCA records. 6Th is testimonial 7th onwards are all certs! yeah im damn talented ya know.. Hope they will accept! Or i go back and kick that fat man's butt keke. 

Ouch gastric! Spent whole morning on this. Quite alot people appeal. ard 10 for science? is that alot? haha no idea! Im full of hope in everything! Im getting mad! 

Wow another michelle branch song playing! Breathe and 'til i get over you are nice songs in terms of just the melody and stuffs, not the lyrics. But dido still rox! 

Every 9 pts people get into vj and i 10 cant get in lol.. isnt that fun? Haha. 

Last shoutout to all my frens! Good luck in your JCs/Polys ! Qw jia you ar! Yf good luck! Fman dont hobby too much (talking!) can liao! Yes i mentioned 3 names! Tonight headlines will be someone like this: Teen brutally murdered in Bedok Reservoir road. 3 friends suspected to be involved! 

lifespan calculator

您将于公元2081年11月22日去世！

您距离死亡还有： 72年 0月 4日 7时 29分 22秒

http://www.huoguan.com/survey/lifetest.do?username=1306780799#myspace.cn

too little too late.

ahh.. its nearing the end of the year! to me, this year is incredibly fast.. which is good too. cos this year i ORD lo..

ah.. and i dug out my this year's resolutions to try and see if i've fulfilled them, and if not, try and do some last minute work!

2008's wishlist:
1. get out of army alive.
2. make more friends.
3. completely get rid of my acne.
4. stay happy and healthy.
5. everyone's wishes comes true.
6.
7. world a better place.

Legend: Fulfilled, somewhat fulfilled, obviously not fulfilled

Im going to post this again at the start of nxt year.. so i shant say much about them now.. cos the year has not ended yet..

kk. im gonna work on those with colours except green.. see what i can do in 20 odd days!

happy 4th birthday

my blog is 4 years old! omg im so old.

Love Languages

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		9
Physical Touch:		8
Words of Affirmation:		6
Acts of Service:		4
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

lazy bones

I don't know.. 

After 2-3weeks of zuo bo-ing at home. 

I suddenly feel very sian. 

My interest for new games like RA3 and Call of Duty: World at War can only last for one mission worth of time in the games.

Perhaps it's because I'm playing all these alone. 

Sad life..

It's funny.. how targets in games can be set so easily compared to real life. "To reach level xx by x days" Purpose is clear, methodology vivid. Sometimes i wonder how life is similar to games. For games, you know sooner or later you will stop playing the game, but yet you would still put in every time and effort to make everything right, while you are still playing the game. Life certainly is not forever, and yet you see SO much effort is put by different people trying to live better, trying to earn more money, trying to persuade people, trying to try things, trying to be DIFFERENT. 

We are all the same. We are stubborn - stubborn for hope, and that makes us human. We know we will die anyway, but deep down inside we hope we wouldn't. At least not our spiritual soul anyway. 

When we break up with somebody, we hope they would return. When we are poor, we hope we have enough money to get by. When we are down on our luck, we hope that the next thing to happen is luck. When we are being raped by qingwei, we hope we can rape him back.

When one loses hope, he/she hopes that things would just end.

Whoever who gives hope to people, gives people 'lives'. 'Lives' perceived by human's as good, because they hope that living is good. If i were to tell you there makes no difference between your existence and non-existence, you wouldn't mind not living. 

Sometimes 'life' is not as good as people think it is, they start to blame 'life' for being bad. "I have a bad 'life' and there is nothing i can do with it." It's most unfortunate but in actual sense, one could say that the person's 'life' is not what he/she hoped for, and therefore wouldn't mind not living.

If we were just entities in this world, in computing sense, then i think hope and life are codes that humans can't do without. They are the guardians for the for or while loops. In actual fact, they are more like the brackets in the loop. It ensures that humans do what they do until their time is out - alas, the argument of 'duration less than x' no longer hold true.

Yes, while we are living, we may get to see a few other such brackets, or hope, that keeps us occupied doing specific things. One who sees hope in gambling, does gambling over and over again, until the specific time where he/she falls out of the for/while loop, in triump or defeat. 

Humans are all the same. Data or as we term them as "memories" get passed from one human to another, and get flushed when forgotten/overwritten - 'broken pointers' in computer terms. Humans are the same. When their time is up, when they are done, they get deleted or flushed. If there is a need, a new entity would take over his/her previous responsibillities.

Ok.. im just very bored and didn't feel like playing any games, so i write all these for fun.

I'm off hoping to be a more happy entity for now!

my ORD.

*melodious beep tone~*

I'm awaken by my handphone alarm at 5.30am, just realising that i only slept 3 hours ago.

The night before I had many thoughts in mind. Mainly because the next day is my ord.

The next thing i knew, i was already on my way to the bus stop in my civilian clothes.

On the way there, i began to recollect all the experience I had during these 2 years, the good and the bad, and how did they changed my life. Whether if im posted to unit (41 SAR) instead, having different people as buddies, would I change? For better or worse? Thinking of how our lives shape us to be who we are. I'm lucky to say that I'm still meeting the right people.. i guess.. haha.

I reached my bunk only to found out that my bed and cupboard is already occupied by someone else. The best thing is that.. my cupboard lock has been changed to someone else's. Then where are my precious things? The most important thing i recall leaving inside is my course photograph at the taipei tao yuan international airport. I immediately looked into the thrash bag in the bunk only to find my toothpaste and other thrash inside. I went on to find out who is the one to moved in to my bed and actually broke my lock (it cost at least 5 dollars by the way) and threw all my things away. 

After some asking around, found out it's one of the new people from my dept. He said they just moved in the night before, and thought we ord so they broke our locks(oh great!). He added that he knew that the photograph would mean something and therefore put it somewhere else(where he did not remember). After a trip back to the bunk, he concluded that most likely it has been thrown away with other thrash. (what a welcome back on last day? it's like bad things WILL happen any day in camp.) But i held back my emotions despite being a sentimental(i guess) person, because its my ord and i dont want to spoil the memories.

After some paperwork, at 11.30am, I have officially ORDed by getting my Pink IC back! The guy from the photo of my Pink IC looks so young so different from me. :'(

I was then presented the Certificate of Service, service transcript and testimonial by my CO. Oh, so I'm actually an OUTSTANDING soldier with OUTSTANDING conduct. Great! I should sign on! Like real..

One thing on my testimonial said, "Gibson will continue to excel in any field in the future". That's reassuring.. however I don't know which field to choose.

My buddy has ORDed the day before, so it makes the whole process a little bit more emotional i guess. :'( 

And so i left the camp with some of my friends at 12pm sharp, without looking back at all. When you look back, it's either you can't let go or you have no choice but to go. Therefore I didn't. Because I know it's only good for us to let go and move on to next phase of life for us to be happy, and thus i choose to go.

I have... ORD LOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

with mixed feelings. But i know it's a kind of happiness.

so many things so little time

things to do before uni:

learn guitar

learn piano

learn tennis

decide what to do in life

learn economics

learn statistics

play ra3

play call of duty 5

play grand theft auto 4

play starcraft 2

play diablo 3

watch heroes

watch gossip girl

watch bleach

watch code geass

watch all movies i have

get a job

get a new camera fone

get a laptop

get a new pair of spectacles/contacts

to be continued...