chasing cars

I'm afraid that my curiousity would cause me to take on a course of Physics in the new future. A course surely of busyness and loniliness (if i will realise it). But what is loniless but just a series chemical reaction in my body telling me i need (do i?) a company. But of couse the world of future is too uncertain, let alone exploring the future.. that sometimes, regretably due to the chemical reaction's cousins, i find it too much of a bother.

Therefore, I guess i would most likely continue to "live a normal life".

this is taken from Stephen Hawking's web, do read the public lectures if anyone is free! its an incredibly good read!

Since events before the Big Bang have no observational consequences, one may as well cut them out of the theory, and say that time began at the Big Bang. Events before the Big Bang, are simply not defined, because there's no way one could measure what happened at them. This kind of beginning to the universe, and of time itself, is very different to the beginnings that had been considered earlier. These had to be imposed on the universe by some external agency. There is no dynamical reason why the motion of bodies in the solar system can not be extrapolated back in time, far beyond four thousand and four BC, the date for the creation of the universe, according to the book of Genesis. Thus it would require the direct intervention of God, if the universe began at that date. By contrast, the Big Bang is a beginning that is required by the dynamical laws that govern the universe. It is therefore intrinsic to the universe, and is not imposed on it from outside.

my love.

I know love is with the heart
and shown with action.
I know love is not merely words like
the following:

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you

anyway, just to let you know
i really love you.

This is cool

and i do question life.

humans are interesting. let alone life.

just only a few decades ago, people do not even have proper clothing or food,
and they worry not about starving or being less nicely attired.
They worry about how are they going to support their family.

Maybe we are too spoilt? We worry about what to eat, even though we already have food. We worry about love, when we cant even afford the Marriage Preparory Programme (it costs money i think?). We worry about what to do in our spare time, how we look in front of the mirror, the clothes we wear, the shampoo we use, the bag we sling, the perfume we carry (perfume!!?!?!?), the movies we watch, the results we get, the course we going to take, the job we pursue, the time we wait.

I guess we worry about the wrong things? What's worrying is why people are worrying.
If life brings you where you go, as if anything is going to change if u worked abit harder, stayed abit longer, write abit faster, walked abit slower, think abit further, born abit earlier, born abit prettier, be abit richer.

Instead, it is all in the mind. You are who you think you are. If you think you are a failure, you are already am. If you think you are a winner, you are. If you can feel happy living with 5 dollars a day, you are. If you think that the results u get is superly fantastic, you will feel happy. Life is much more happier when you think about it happier.

Ask yourself, if you have all that you want to have now, wouldn't you start wanting to have more? Perhaps.. the meaning of life?

缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念

在没有温度的冬夜里,
没想到竟然会梦见你...

why do movies make me cry

do you understand how it is like to wake up every morning not knowing what you are living for? Is it to earn money? Is it to achieve your dream of becoming an pop star, or maybe, a scientist, or maybe, the richest guy in the world?

I know what i want. I want a house where i will spend the rest of my life with the woman i love. I want to have kids. To have daughters who look like their mother. To have sons who look like me. I want a nice backyard, where my children can chase after me; and me after our dog. I want to kiss my wife goodnight, every night.

I want a simple, happy and fulfilling life.

And on this lonely night, i wish you goodnight.

爱

爱上了你的声音,
爱上了你的面孔。

爱上了你的一切，
使我难以放手。

谁在用琵琶弹奏一曲东风破

一盏离愁孤单伫立在窗口
我在门後假装你人还没走
旧地如重游月圆更寂寞
夜半清醒的烛火不忍苛责我

一壶漂泊浪迹天涯难入喉
你走之後酒暖回忆思念瘦
水向东流时间怎黱偷
花开就一次成熟我却错过

谁在用琵琶弹奏一曲东风破
岁月在墙上剥落看见小时候
犹记得那年我们都还很年幼
而如今琴声幽幽我的等候你没听过

谁再用琵琶弹奏一曲东风破
枫叶将故事染色结局我看透
篱笆外的古道我牵著你走过
荒烟漫草的年头就连分手都很沉默

finally

finally the dreaded -pc compeition is over!
can finally concentrate on my studies!

what's good is that got win some prizes which look cheap at start

imation swivel pro 2 flash drive 2gb - $95 according to sg.hardwarezone.com
s3nnh3is3r mx 9o vc - ??

haix.. i wish they gave me a ip0d nano instead.. or at least an ip0d shuffle..

as u can see i encrpyt alot words.. i scared they track me!

李圣杰 - 痴心绝对

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

this is

This is what i posted on last year july, but its so good im gonna post it again..

The Colour of Hazel

The things he did and the words he said.
Its all over because of something he read.

Now forever I lost him because I lied.
I wanted to tell the truth and I tried.

I was afraid that I was just a fling.
Now I realize I could have been something.

Maybe we weren't for each other from the start.
All I'm really good for is a broken heart.

He ended it all with barely a goodbye.
We didn't last long, but still I cry.

The only thing left of him is a sad memory.
Those deep caring eyes, I will never again see.

Maybe someday we will again be together.
I hope that then it will last forever...

by Alana Demers

Love not with

Love not with our tongues but our hearts.
Wait not for love to come today but everyday.
Prove forever not with time but enthusiasm.
Miss you not with months but seconds.

breaking logic 1.

this is start of a very long (i hope) logic decoding/breaking/analysis posts.

first up:

Do we live for someone who died for us, when we should've died in the first place?

Notice we should've died suggests that we have to die, but yet someone sabotaged our duty to do so. So is someone here doing justice? And why do we have to live for someone who messed up our fate and all the great plans, supposing toward the better (if not the best)?

While this sentences itself disguises itself as a rhetorical question, it actually contains some backstabbing (pessimistic view) / intrigueing (optimistic view) ideas.

This has nothing to do with the saviour thing.

Note: There is no error with the distinct word. (grins.. if you can read my mind)

Be prepared for the next series! Such posts are good for mind exercising and it keep brains working fine!

napfa

Sit-ups: 43 A
Standing-broad jump: 248 B
Sit and reach: 45 B
Chin-ups: 9 B
Shuttle run (4x10m): 9.0s A
2.4 km run: 10:41 B

Score = 26/30

Except for chin-ups which my top was 10 and shuttle run which i didnt break 9, the overall is satisfactory, and in fact the best result since sec 3. haha
finally overcome the pull-up nightmare.

after that was some cg basketball.
it shocks people how time files.
i cant believe i waited for you for 2 years already.

WHY?

why did i fall in love with her in the first place?
why do i have to suffer like this?
after 2 years of wait.
after so many endless nights.

i have finally found out
she doesn't remember me.

so in love there will always have a fool,
clinging on to what is called the impossible.

i have imagined too much.
there were too much coincidence.
but now im finally awake.
i had fallen in love with someone who will never love me.

fuck this life.
fuck all these.

fuck myself.

i just need some love in this world.
heaven you dont have to fool me like this.
so im alone all along.
alone.

The game of life.

I grow up and I'm suddenly eighteen,
and life ahead isn't what I would think.
Education, is it really such a big thing?
Certificates and degrees; sugar and cream?
But sugar and cream only make me fat.
When I'm working I would feel like crap.
Of how I didn't spend myself chasing crabs,
and spend more time in the park taking a nap.

Fame, glory, and power am I looking for that?
It's natural, oh so natural for that.
However, these may all be a trap.
Keeping my life off track.
What do you cherish most I'd ask?
Extra money and recognition may all seem a plus.
But when I lose my loves because of these tasks,
Is it all worth it I ask?

To be continued-

somewhere only we know

THIS IS TO REMIND MYSELF

I AM TO..

1) SCORE A FOR CHEMISTRY FOR PRELIMS <- JUST WATCH ME
2) SCORE A FOR PHYSICS FOR PRELIMS
3) SCORE A FOR MATHS FOR PRELIMS <- YOU SAID LIFE IS UNFAIR AS I DID WELL FOR MY MATHS EVEN THOUGH I DID NOT DO TUTORIALS. YOU DONT KNOW MY LIFE AND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. NOW IM GONNA GET A TO SHOVE IT TO YOUR FACE

I MUST DO THIS. I MUST STUDY EVERYDAY. ELSE IM NOT FIT TO BE WHO I AM. JUST WATCH ME.

CDE -> AAA IN 1 MONTH.

STARTING TODAY

sweet death.

A love like all loves, sweet and lingering.
A hate like all hates, springs from love.