i won the first sc2 game on my bdae.. but my bdae means, im already 23 omfggg so old alr!!

23 years old, and rabbit year! i think im really affiliated with the number 23..

2011~

as i looked through my previous year's entry, i realised i should put up a picture of fireworks.. but i hesitated because i didnt manage to take a nice one. well i have a video though.. but i lazy to upload la..

resolution for 2010

1. BE HAPPY

2. Meet more new friends!

3. Continue to improve on my guitar skills!

4. Finally find someone i like who likes me also (hopefully)

5. Stay healthy

Legend: Fulfilled, somewhat fulfilled, obviously not fulfilled

I think last year i was smart to make simple and little wishes. LOL. anw here's a summary of the wishes.

1. Last year was obviously happy for obvious reasons. At least i can say for me, i have found something that i really wanted. see point 4.

2. Well if we take things literally, then ya, i have met new friends.. but i have also made new friends in 2010!

3. I wasn't that good to begin with. But i think playing for one year makes me at least a slight bit better ba..

4. If you look at my last year's post, actually i made a secret wish about it.. (well.. not so secret.. you just have to highlight the part at point 4 to see what i wished for. google definitely knows about it though. lol)

5. I dont think i was very healthy at the start of year 2010. But well, i stayed almost the same..(actually i haven't exercised for long) haha but i still look the same though. myth confirmed.

2010 is definitely better than the last 5 years or so. There are things that i have finally let go, and things that I have come to accept, and things that i'd come to embrace.

2010 was a year of improvement. I was glad i had the courage to let go. When we have our hands full, we wouldnt have space for anything else.

Resolution for 2011

1. BE HAPPY

2. Meet more new friends!

3. Continue to improve on my guitar skills!

4.

5. Stay healthy

6. Survive South Korea

7. IPPT GOLD! ($400!!) - this was actually a 2009 resolution

8. I wish that everyone who matters to me find their own happiness, be it to be from anything.

9. Though I have to admit i might have less time for people who had been with me through my darkest times all these years, I hope that our friendship will only become stronger!

Happy New Year!

Gibson

Things to do this super short holiday

1. learn hangeul
2. piano+guitar
3. starcraft
4. module planning >.<

5. clean up/throw away JC stuff

6. get my fitness back

7. sep matters, recommendation letter
8

Edited:

The year is ending, but this year is very different. Things got going, and of course life is turning from great to fantastic.

Sometimes it's not things that are holding us down. It may be us holding on to them too hard.

Cheers and hope next year would be fabulous as well! With SEP coming before i know it.

And soon i have to dig out my 2010 resolution and start making a new one!

:)

happy 6th birthday blog!

haha seriously though, i dun remember the date, and i had always relied on qw's blog's bdae to remind me.

anw blog, may you have many years to go, lol.

It's getting too hot in here.

Today my wife was too hot, but it turned off automatically at several points of my starcraft mania. I checked her(GPU) temperature and was shocked to see an idle 90+ degrees Celsius and peak 105+ degrees Celsius!

I couldnt stand it after several times of auto shut down(my 4850 card has a auto shut down temperature of 110 degree celsius), so i went to service her. took out the heatsink and fan compartment(i swore i took out more than 15 screws) and gave it a thorough clean. Shocked but relieved to see theres a super thick layer of dust choking the fins, blocking airflow from the fan. I was relieved because i think that that is surely the problem.

after assembling everything and played starcraft again, checked the temperatures and they went down to 56 degree celsius idle and 68 degree celsius busy! omfgfg. ok back to playing.

thank you for coming into my life

life is strange. it could have gone any other way, but it had to be this way. i have to be thankful for all the other ways that didnt work out for my life to be this way, right now, at this very moment, with you :)

i hope this stays forever,


even though forever is always too much to ask for.

我要的东西不多，但因为我曾经想要的都得不到，我学会了少期望什么。但是可能因为你而破例，心不碎，隔着一边也没用。我的心会碎吗？

mozart

listen to this when you are tired of songs with overly reused themes and chords!

i love stats

Depending on the context, an independent variable is also known as a "predictor variable," "regressor," "controlled variable," "manipulated variable," "explanatory variable," "exposure variable," and/or "input variable."

A dependent variable is also known as a "response variable," "regressand," "measured variable," "observed variable," "responding variable," "explained variable," "outcome variable," "experimental variable," and/or "output variable."

Source: wikipedia

the only permanent thing in life is change

before:
whole night of 28th july was spent trying to install win 7 itself, where there was always a stuck in the installation after numerous tries. I was too tired and went to sleep with a disabled PC.

Woke up on 30th july feeling energised again, I tried to install win 7 again, getting the same result (stuck at 0% of Expanding windows files).

Found a completely unburned sector(s) on the install disk and became very suspicious. I went on to plug back my old HDD, did a little google, and burned a brand new disk using the Windows 7 USB/DVD download tool. Viola, disk looks perfectly burned now. Even made a bootable USB drive just in case.

10.30am~ish. Elated to see % get past 0... 1..2..3...90..91....99.....100!!!

11am~ish.

there are still much more to be done -- installing important progs and migrating my whole hdd over

[continued]

migrating software i used. dled norton ghost 15 and acronis, but in the end this simple program is all i need.

successfully migrated my most recent HDD. went on to migrate the HDD i had before that (used back in the JC days).

failed many times. went on to do chkdsk several times. realised that chkdsk can actually be done in windows! (provided the drive is not in use of course)

my last try before totally giving up..

success!!

tada!!

(yes you are not mistaken, thats the d2 icon - back in those days where there were no daemon tools, i copied the whole d2 disk to my hdd to act as a play disk/install disk)

Shutdown and removed the ancient HDD.

End product:

Oh my thats like one whole day spent. But definitely worth it. Now i have 3 generations of hard disks in a single hard disk!

Now~ to slowly fill the 2 very empty bars that i have. haha!

- the end -

my last post... before i go for my first ICT

haha. kinda having a little weird feeling now. i guess its a combination of not having anything to do now and a little bit of anxiety for wad may come for ICT. reminds me of the first day of NS.

difference is that i dont have to carry a sdfgdakjhgdds big bag all across the island.

Beacons

It's funny how we would want to share our thoughts yet keep the innermost ones out of everyone's reach. It's such an irony that this archaic blog of mine was named The Sanctuary because in the end most of the time it is actually a 100m range for my rant bullets.

Things around us move on, people too. So what if i remain unchanged, feelings and dedication and all. Would I stay relevant?

I envy practical people. They make decisions and move on. Maybe i dislike them for their trend. Or maybe im just jealous.

I think im just irrelevant in this society.

Outdated values.




People call me pessimistic, but i trust my judgement.
We are losing time all the while,
and we dont have much to dither with false hopes and expectations.

We are aging.
I thought i can just waste my life away doing nothing, but where exactly is this feeling of anxiety coming from?

My future is dim. And there are no lighthouses for me.
No harbour to dock,
I sail away to my distant memories.

You're the only star, in the film I never made.

im super bored

despair

http://www.facebook.com/notes/jansen-ko/letter-to-a-christian-girlfriend/331261178826

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
-William Butler Yeats

Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able?
Then he is not omnipotent.
Is he able, but not willing?
Then he is malevolent.
Is he both able and willing?
Then whence cometh evil?
Is he neither able nor willing?
Then why call him God?"
- Epicurus

this place sux

i feel sg sux to the core.

it seems like people here(note i didnt mention sg-reans) are so self-absorbed, that complaining about their self-absorbedness, makes me look self-absorbed.

am i supposed to feel sympathetic about people who are so "busy" who can go overseas trips and have fun in camps so much so that they cant accomplish their SUPPOSED tasks?

am i supposed to do all their tasks for them just because i leave more personal time to well, myself? not that i want to, but i dont have the money for such a busy schedule. Even travelling to orchard road everyday just for walks would cost alot of money(from transport fees).

so im being LAZY i guess.

sg sux totally.

and i fking hate to be in super inefficient managements. ARGH!

people whom i want to thank

albom mitch

andrew furmanczyk

currently, this list has only one name, but of course this is not all.

the names that im going to put in here are people who inspired or helped me deeply one way or another. (but sad to say i may somehow forget, so im doing this in case of that:))

things to do: in life

not done, somewhat done, done!

be in love with someone

travel around the world with her

- europe, japan, usa, canada(or somewhere cold)

marry her

start a family

tour with kids

watch the children grow up

be proud of them

retire happily

grow old with the one i love

rest in peace

:)

the black swan

suppose earth was destroyed and a few people managed to hop on to a space shuttle designed for sustainable life in space.

suppose if there are 1 bil bacteria(just a rough figure for simplicity sake) living in an enclosed space, and there is 1:1billion chance that a bacteria would mutate to be able to wipe off humankind easily. now can you realise the significance of such a black swan?

a low probability event that has an extremely heavy consequence.

when i uplorry

its been a very long time since i really blogged about myself and my life. haha. even if one day there is a possibility of me being famous, and have the luck to have a biographer, please please dear biographer, please do note that this blog is more of a target board for my rants and it does not truly reflect my true self! hahaha! cant believe im talking to my 'biographer' now.

but well, let today be an exception to the norm.

okay, on this nice cloudy day (to be considered chilly for this little island of singapore) i went bowling with my stats/chem frens. had quite alot of fun. and i finally get to know how to bowl by adding spin to the ball! u know those kind where e ball seems like dropping into e long kang but manages to spin back into e middle chioness!

haha but now my middle 2 fingers are hurting bad, because while experimenting, i hurt my hand during a time when e ball hit e ground early, with my fingers still inside e ball :'(.

--

i cant believe that i had done really nothing tonight. :'( i wish to be more productive but i want to have fun as well. hmm this problem would be solved if i can find something that i like doing, that will at e same time contribute to my life?

that is something i may never be lucky enough to find in my lifetime!

alright off to sleep, or to perhaps to read some books i have bt'ed!