they hunger

im having a macraving now. no thats not a new burger from macdonalds, but im having a craving for mac RIGHT NOW. im hungry..

that aside, im 2 working days and 1 guard duty to my ord.

mixed feelings i guess.

i can finally leave the shithole full of liars, hypocrites, ballsuckers, suckers, and f-kers, for real.

no longer trapped in the stupid system with fk'd up hierachy. It's sometimes funny that a aristocratic form of organisation (or rather, disorganisation) is in charge of defending Singapore, a republic. ok.. or rather im not an army type of person.

the sad thing about leaving is that this may be the last time i'll be seeing my friends in ns already!!

I'm also daunted by the future. Being 21 years old and, having to make life changing decisions like uni application, and the shear 8-9months of free time!

bandwidth intensive thread!

i was bored and i went download.com to shop.. 

this is my new desktop!! im using windows XP by the way. :)

at the same time trying out the screen recorder as well haha..

sorry for the poor quality, thats the best youtube can give.

im sorry for the lack of a sexy narrator voice from ehem'.. myself.. but i hope the sexy blog i posted should make up for it :))))))

these are some interesting things:

do you remember your childhood games?

would you do this?

"Quinson said he doesn't miss money, nor does he pine for the adrenaline boost from the trading floor, but he does feel deprived of female companionship."

and..

you have been ns'ed

somebody in edmw forum ask, NS in Resume? 

this is one of the funniest reply you can find.

ns ~ waste of time and resources 
but maybe if u are joining mediacorp, ns is important cos u learn alot on acting and wayang skills ! 

Here's something i found on youtube(i might be slow...): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__PWe4-CGTU

Probably after i ORD i will buy this:

Probably instead of this i will buy one super good camera, probably a Digital SLR. I want to keep things alive, especially my memories. But memories will eventually fade away. Bytes won't! At least with today's technology it won't be so fast.

Suddenly, i felt that i was henta kaki(army command - meaning march on the ground) for very long already. All this time devoted to the nation, albeit important, has saw my mind coming to a standstill. 

I figured all this while in my life I haven't had any progress in anything. Watching taiwanese variety shows presenting kids aged 3 playing drums as pro as how I cried and defecated in my diapers at that same age, made me realise that I am still doing nothing.

Born musicians are already musicians, aspiring musicians are already musicians. Same as other disciplines. But me? Probably the highest and most incredible and definitely not the proudest advancement I find myself make was my level 45 Cleric in MapleSEA. 

I wanted to be a programmer. I stopped programming.

I dreamt of being a progamer. My skills were nowhere near. 

I aspired to be a music artiste. I had better not.

I hoped to play professional tennis. I don't even know how to serve.

I have a dream. To live in a big house on top of a green hill, where at night I could stargaze with my lover and at day I could just sit on top of the hill and enjoy the breeze with the same person. My bank account has only 4 digits and I haven't had any girlfriend yet.

People have long left the crossroads, I'm still here wondering which way to go.

Probably because I have no one to go with.

Probably because I'm too afraid to find out what's at the end of the roads.

Probably because I have no interest in walking any of the roads.

I'm like a lost sheep. Like most of everyone else in this world. Human beings are a confused species. They don't know what they want. Do what they don't want, and want what they don't do. 

Perhaps a very emo post lol. Maybe if I don't tink too much I will be much happier, but knowing that I didn't tink when I do know that I can is a bigger pain. If we don't tink, will our lives be in vain?

Edit:

just to add.. some very smart guy who has indeed advanced deep deep into the killer industry said this near the start of my blog.

"aiya i oso dunno wad 2 sae la, but u onli live once, sumtimes if u misse chance le nxt time u find it harder 2 find back wad u realli wanted then u will alwayz tink abt it n regret 4 life" 

 HOW TRUE OMG. that's the 2nd time i said that lol. This guy is too wise to be a killer. Thanks f***man for your wonderful quote again haha