when i went into the wrong page

i dont know why but maybe fate brought me to blogger.
i dont have much to share.
muchly because i dont feel like doing so.

but since im here im gonna say something about ar|\/|y then.
first of all.. i feel that it has made me realise how fortunate we are now..
can slack at home do nth.. play comp until the point that u get sian of it..

now i have to rush at everything.
be it rush to wait, or wait to rush.
getting tekan for god knows what reason.
but motive is to make us stronger, physically and mentally.
but seriously, if they make it self motivated training..
i think i would have been more willing and there would be
better results and i would have a kinder perspective about "training" in armie.

actually i knew i had something to blog. but blogger seems to have a negative induction force that blocks out all thoughts except the useless ones.

take out the blade through my heart

the problem is, i myself dont believe in what i came in theory about life. theory which makes human lives, and other lives seem so worthless. making the word "worth" worthless. all worth in the world is of perspective. if one falls, other will too.

if u think u really understand, find me at msn. let's have a hearty talk.

stars

everyday after a series of tiring training, i will always look up to the sky.
the stars here in tekong are so big and bright.
and every night, i thought, wouldnt it be nice if you were beside me watching them too.

if the number of stars in the sky represents how many days till i see you,
i'll always tell myself that i wont be sad.
i'll always tell myself that at least i'll get to see you again.

its funny but if so, then the day i see you will have no stars.
but then i wont mind, because u are my brightest star.